Around Me

Feels like there is nothing for me here.

All the hard work I have put in is going unnoticed.

I just want to go home.

Forget my dreams, I have lost all hope.

The time I have put in has gone down the hole.

Growing up never felt so sad.

Realizing that not all dreams come true.

Don’t want to be looked on as a quitter.

Nor as someone who enjoys to lose,

but everything around me seems to be untrue.

I think of baseball and I see my life,

but I look around me and I see the cause of all my fights.

I think of people and I see my family and friends,

but I look around me and I see people that cause all the sorrow and pain.

I do not belong here yet I still remain.

Try to do things right yet I am in last place.

Why do I bother?

Why do I continue?

Is there something that I must do in a place that I seem to not exist.

Feel lost and so alone.

The people that comfort me are just a call away yet the presence of a hug is so far away.

My life now is so lonely.

No one to go home too to talk all the troubles away.

I once had a surrounding that was as perfect as can be.

Now I have surrounded myself with uncertainty.

With people that could care less.

A household that seems like a jail cell with no way out.

Nothing for me here is what I imagined it to be.

A baseball future that is nothing what it once seemed to be.

No bed to sleep in and a team that plays worse than little league.

What have I put myself into?

When I once had everything I would ever need.

A roof over my head and something to eat.

A place to sleep in and a car to move along.

Family and friends to hang out with and pass jokes along.

I guess you never know what you have until it is truly gone….

Dream

So many things on my mind,

Thoughts aren’t focused,

Eyes practically blind.

Mentally drained,

Muscles strained.

Yet that smile,

Those eyes,

Somehow that always crosses my mind.

Knowing the unknown,

Testing uncharted waters.

The time is irrelevant,

Distance has no measure,

But instant communication does have it’s pleasures.

The thought of your face,

The sound of your voice,

Paints a picture in my mind.

As if one were looking out to the skyline from the Empire State,

Or to the Rocky Mountains from the cabin at your estate.

Maybe even the plains from the horse back ride,

Or the sandy beaches along the coast of Malibu, Hawaii.

Beauty is what I see,

Although a total goof ball you may be.

The feeling of a dream is becoming a reality,

An angel molded into a being.

No Measure

Distance was traveled,

Time well spent.

Never would have thought,

Randomly met.

Who was to think that we would have crossed paths,

Seemed like two parrell lines that had futures whose worlds would never clash.

Coincidence,

Luck,

Whatever it may be,

Paths should have been crossed,

World should have been seen.

Yet time was wasted,

Traveled through time.

Unfolding a future,

Whose hearts intertwined.

Worlds stay apart,

Although paths have been crossed.

Much like a graph,

Where you have to connect the dots.

X’s and O’s,

Game plan is at hand.

Trying to get the upper hand.

Slow and steady is how the turtle won the race,

Testing of patience is the game we face.

Life give us many challenges,

And we choose which ones we take.

Battles are fought,

Yet wars seem to go on forever.

This is the pleasure of a man whose thoughts for someone has no measure.

Fanaticizers

Thoughts arise like vapor from the ground,

Heated thoughts that don’t make sound.

Boiling up to the point of explosion,

Only to cause one poison.

Don’t know what to do,

Or what to say.

Like Doug E. Fresh once said: this type of s*it happens everyday.

Just like the seasons,

Feeling come and feeling go.

Although some stay and grow.

And in life you must learn to let grow.

Life is full of if’s just look at the word.

L IF E

So live with no doubts and learn from mistakes,

Because the mistakes made are lesson one takes that school does not certificate.

Hard knocks, tough love…

Call it what you’d like,

Those are things one learns in this battle called life.

So stay positive and put up a fight,

Most dogs bark and don’t bite.

Ball up a fist,

And stare life in the eyes,

Go toe to toe,

Like a heavy weight fight.

And as you sleep dream of what might be,

Then wake up and make them reality.

Dreamers that keep on dreaming turn into fanaticizes.

Drift

Loving the life,

I cannot complain,

So many obstacles have come my way.

Like a track star I jump over hurdles,

Racing to the finish line,

Only not knowing when to say my final dash.

Take it one day at a time,

Learn from your mistakes.

A re things that are said to a young fellow in the states.

It is a good experience,

Life is tough,

Are the things that are said when the lad has grown up.

Don’t dwell on your past,

Nor praise your future.

Enjoy your present,

For it’s what keeps you moving.

This is what the man has come to see,

A wise young fellow,

And a lad indeed.

Though at times he thinks about his past and what it could be,

If he had not left behind what once felt like a part of thee.

In those glimpses from the past, the future is untold.

For the what if’s start to unfold.

But without that past he would not have today.

So he rejoices in those times where he forgets,

His accomplishments and his new lifestyle,

Wondering though if he will on day remember what it was,

That made him drift so far apart…

Escuridad

Cierras tus ojos,

Imagínate un lugar donde estés solo…

Con nadie al lado tuyo.

Pensando en tu vida,

Imaginándote todo lo que tienes que hacer,

Y solo.

No tienes una pareja que te acompañe a ningún sitio.

Tu mundo en escuridad.

Todo lo que tu pensaste ante no vale para nada.

Tienes que empezar una vida nueva…y solo.

La persona que estaba para ti se a ido sin deciente nada.

Se fue para un mundo totalmente diferente a lo que ha vivido.

Para un mundo de mentira,

Pelea,

Y agonía.

También solo,

Con nadie a su lado.

Sin que nadie lo ayude.

Pero en estos momentos de escuridad ayee que ser fuerte.

Y luchar para lo que es importante para ti.

Si cera tu sueños o objetivos de carera.

No deje que nadie te diga lo contrario.

Sigue luchando para mejorar tu vida,

Y más importante en esos momentos de dudas.

Aunque se aparezca imposible,

Siempre ayee alguna manera para sobrevivir.

Gift

With so many what if's in life how does one live?

How does one go about their day without thinking about their past, present, and future?

What you have done in your past has lead you to where you are today so don't regret those moments.

Today is a gift, which is why it's called present.

So cherish every moment you have and use those moments to better your life.

With your present you plan for your future.

No matter what it may bring.

Future plans are never written in stone becasue one never knows what unexpected events may occur.

So learn from those stone writtings from the past so you don't repeat them in your future.

You never wait until tomorrow becasue tomorrow never comes becasue it turns into today.