Shy

Stressing over nothing,

Have nothing going on.

But something is buggin’,

What the hell is going on?

Why do I think,

About things I can’t control.

Letting life get a little out of control.

Need to take a step back,

And just take it easy.

Fall back and breathe,

This might not be easy,

So why am I so scared,

Scared to find out the truth,

Why must I hide my feelings,

Why can’t I stay true.

I put up a wall when I am around you,

Can’t explain it,

Don’t know why it happens,

Shy I am,

Scared I shall be,

These things you might not believe,

I put up a front so others don’t see the real me.

I just want to ask you,

But I am afraid of what the answer might be,

Even though I have a feeling it won’t be in favor of me,

I get a mixed vibe,

Weird emotions from you,

But I don’t really know because I never approached you.

Keeping my distance from what I think will be,

Just because I know how I will be,

So scared I shall stay,

Shy I will be,

Until I build up enough courage to ask thee.

Stay

Mayhem,

Loads of ruckus,

Head aches come up like raising mountains.

Fire burning like the Olympic flame,

Never going out like an inmate in the cage.

Endless flow like Niagara Falls,

Like the Phoenix I never fall.

Temptations arise,

And darkness falls.

O how I wonder how I get through,

Sometimes it seems so tough,

But this is the time when you use your strength,

For it will help you take things away.

Alone I might be,

But that don’t bother me.

For I know one day I’ll be happy.

Until that day comes,

I won’t be done,

I’ll keep on looking for that special one that comes my way,

So I can live my life knowing that she is there to stay.

Finding Thee...

Look out to the ocean,

What do I see?

Nothing but blue,

And some clouds in the scene.

Take a dive,

Go out to the blue.

O the adventure that will surround you.

Treasure you might find,

Or an unexpected guest that took you surprise.

Down at the bottom looking through,

Find a pebble,

Set out to be seen.

The most beautiful thing I have eve seen.

Full of life,

Full of joy,

The feelings brought on by this tiny stone.

Mystery it might seem,

And it’s hard to see.

The water is too deep,

Must walk in shallow waters before you go out and swim,

So like the pebble that was in front of thee,

Be patient and the right one will find thee…

Realize

Its funny to me how one can be,

So full of uncertainty.

Old enough to buy a drink,

But too young to realize what’s in the sink.

Take a step back and just gaze,

You are not trapped in that maze.

Realize and take a chance,

All I want is a simple dance.

Guess I haven’t been the nicest guy,

But not all of us wear a disguise.,

You see…I am what you see,

I don’t go around like a bumble bee.

I pick and choose the best flowers,

And yes those are very hard to find.

Hoping that one day you take to listen,

And reminisce on the times that should have glisten.

Have a feeling that the show has come to a stop,

Seems to me like we didn’t pop.

No hard feelings,

I wont be different.

Just move on,

Just stay friends,

In the end it will all make sense.

East/West

As I look east,

As I look west,

All I see is a wonderful sight.

Light up my day,

Like the sun and its rays.

Sometimes I sit and just gaze.

How could something so sweet be in front of me.

Don’t even want to blink.

Afraid of letting time slip by,

Want to hold on to time,

I know we don’t see eye to eye.

I’m just a friend on the side.

Guess I would just have to live with that,

Trying so hard to keep back,

I know the situation at hand,

Not wanting to rush to hold your hand.

A simple hug is what I want,

Meaningful to both,

Want no pity,

Just the truth.

Ignore the things that are said around you,

If I did not say,

Then it wasn’t said.

Not one to play games,

I mean what I say.

More mature for my age,

I can play on the big stage.

But I can’t perform by myself,

Must need someone to help.

Just want you to notice that I’m not like the rest,

So don’t compare me to past events.

Unique,

Genuine,

Sincere,

I am here,

Let me know if you want to come near…

One Day...

In the need,

Just to hold,

Longing for someone to call my own.

Letting life just past me by,

Not with much to worry but still with no one by my side.

Not saying I need,

But I would be nice,

Just to sit down and cuddle,

And laugh at silly things all night.

Whisper in your ear,

Tell you how I feel,

All of that seems so surreal.

Simple as simple gets,

Doesn’t take a lot to impress,

Simple things in life is what matter most,

Don’t need any diamonds or any gold,

A simple gesture to show that you care,

Is all I ask for to know that your still there.

Fancy things don’t mean a thing,

I only want just one thing.

That special someone to call my name,

And say that they care,

Just like I do,

And enjoy the simple things I do.

Cuddle and laugh at the most randomest things.

Hang out and relax,

No need to go out and spend cash,

Special moments I would like to share,

But in no rush,

I have time to spare,

Why rush something that isn’t there,

Wanting something you can’t have,

Will only lead to a never ending pain.

Just sit back and wait is what I shall do,

God will bless me which whom he thinks is true,

Until that time I shall live life the same,

Hoping that one day…

Alone, Lost in thoughts

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Who could of imagined that I would be stuck.

By myself with nothing to hold on too.

Loss of breath,

Gasping for air.

Seems like I am going in despair.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Who could have imagined that I was being out ran.

An athlete who could run for days,

Is being out ran by this mysterious wave.

Hard to keep up,

Losing ground,

Only to sprint and then go back down.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Out in silence,

Hardly any sound,

The two in one room,

With no one around.

Just the beating of two hearts,

Simultaneously as one.

Is the picture I imagine.

Yet there is none.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Deep like the sea,

Cold as the pits.

What strange things lie in these depths.

Creatures of all sizes,

Mean like a bully,

Who picks on the little one.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

What must a nice guy do to get what he wants,

He listens to stories,

Stays true to his word.

Jokes around.,

Just to keep things loose.

So I would like to be first,

But some nice guys finish last.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts…

Abyss

Turn off the lights,

What do you see,

Do I shine in your eyes,

As you do to me.

Am I hard to see,

Or am I clear.

Must you feel around to see if I am near.

Alone you must feel,

In the dark,

An endless pit,

A dreadful abyss.

Do not worry,

Flip that switch,

What do you see…

One day I hope its me.

I know for a fact I won’t let you fall,

You wouldn’t have to worry about feeling for walls.

Don’t fall in the pit,

Or let the pendulum swing,

The smell in the abyss is horrific.

Wouldn’t want you to fall,

Nor smell its stinginess.

Not going to rush,

It’s not a race,

I shall take my time,

Like a mouse in a maze.

For confusing at times,

And hard to see,

But in the end there is certainty.

A reward for the trouble that was.

I just hope the maze isn’t too hard.

Superstar

Bass hits hard,

Rims is spinnin’,

Livin’ that life,

Just keep on winnin’,

All this fame,

All this glory,

Funny how life just seems like a story.

High life,

Fast lane,

Wishes and dreams seem to go my way.

All of this at once,

Feels like gold,

Like in 1849 when Cali struck gold.

Fortune and fame,

Can make you go insane,

Just be careful,

This world is cruel,

Two headed monsters,

And people who like to duel.

Insane in the membrane,

Quoting Cypress Hill,

Some of these people will have you running,

And going up a hill.

Only to realize you can live alone,

This fast paced lifestyle will take a toll,

One with a hefty fee,

One that you cannot pass so easily.

Live and learn from the tolls that you’ve past.

And don’t let the one,

Stray from too far from your grasp.

Relax

Ever had a feeling of wanting something to grow,

But something told you to let go.

Let things go and see how long it last,

Save the suffering and end it fast.

Continuous flow,

Stop before one gets old.

Live with no regrets,

Play it safe and ignore the rest.

Lets flip the script,

And twist things around.

How long do you think it will stay around.

Wanting to let loose,

And forget about the worries,

Live a life of mellowness,

With no worries.

Chill to the bone,

Relaxed and in control,

Hakunamatata,

That is the phrase,

Live a life of no worries,

For the rest of your days.

It’s the way I try to live,

But something always gets in the way.

Thoughts in my mind that won’t go away.

I live in the moment but always think about what’s at hand.

The future still isn’t clear,

Yet it’s placed in my hands.

Must play my pieces correctly,

To stay in this chill land.

Fuss

Words get mixed up,

Feeling get crossed,

Sometimes like an octopus,

With its eight arms.

Words fly freely,

Like an eagle in the sky.

Only to come down,

And take you by surprise.

Hard to remember,

Lost the thought,

The words that are spoken seem to get lost at heart,

Confusion arise,

Doubt causes the fall.

No need to utter,

Just read between the lines.

Different meanings in every word.

People might take them and make them their own,

Feel free to think what you please,

To everyone there will be something else to see,

So don’t fill the mind with uncertainty,

Just relax and listen to the story I tell.

If you read carefully you’ll understand,

How hard it is for me to grab your hand,

I’m still lost in the words that I say,

People don’t make things easier with words they state.

Must take it one day at a time,

All this ruckus can make someone lose their mind.

Time to relax and let it all out,

Leave it all in His hands,

And pray it all works out.

Twist

LMFAO,

Who would have known,

Script is flipped,

Wow what a twist.

Lucky for me I didn’t think much of,

Just a feeling,

That I had in my gut,

Thank you for making things SO clear,

Caught me by surprise,

Indeed my dear.

Oh well,

Life ain’t nothing but pain,

And its how you handle it that keeps you sane,

Think too much and it’ll hurt your membrane.

Ha ha…

You could have said it from the start,

To avoid the trouble that it has brought,

Now I see what you thought of me,

Just a passerby,

Waiting for nothing to be.

Went back to the old ways,

Hoping things would change,

Guess you couldn’t let go,

Now I won’t look at you the same.

Flirtatious vibe,

Not going to lie,

Hurt just a little,

Just the fact that I was brittle,

Gave something a chance,

That I knew had no hope.

I guess its something that I must let go.

Broken wing…

Ha that’s a nice joke,

Now I won’t even poke,

Funny how you lead me to believe,

That there was nothing for me to see.

Its fine,

No hard feelings,

I know that I am better off,

I don’t enjoy playing silly games,

I am at a more serious stage.

Let time pass,

I’ll be alright,

Now its time for me to really open my eyes.

And take notice of what I have,

So my eyes can see on my hearts behalf…

Favor

Why must someone endure so much,

What joy does that bring them.

How can one live through the sorrow,

And hope for a reward.

When everything seems lost,

And all hope is gone,

When will it end?

What does one do?

Where does one go?

Who does one talk too?

So many questions float in ones mind,

Asking themselves why…

Why does this happen to me,

All of this at once,

All of this uncertainty.

Lost in the rubble,

Stuck in a trance,

No one can help,

Stuck in a trap,

Sinking in quick sand,

And no where to grasp,

Yelling for help,

No one seems to hear,

How could this happen to someone so dear.

Go through so much pain,

Yet be so sincere,

Loveable as they are,

Helpful they may be,

I know the truth of what lies beneath,

How can I help,

I must act now,

Time is against me,

The clock ticking now.

Slipping away is the time I have left,

Have to figure out a way to make things rest.

Try some luck,

And pray for the better,

And hope that God plays a hand in their favor.

Surprise

Have time on my hands,

So its time to clean up.

Thinking how my world was flipped,

Just like that.

Wondering how I got here,

In my state of mind,

Lost and confused,

With more questions to sure arise.

Don’t know what to think,

Or how to act.

Must sit down and pray,

And let God pull something from his hat.

I don’t believe in magic,

But I do know one thing is true,

I just have to be patient,

And let Him go to work.

I’ve done all that I can to make things right,

Now its up to God to put things in sight.

Hope my vision isn’t too bad,

I don’t want to lose something that I had in my grasp.

I have a feeling,

Something strange,

I shall ponder on this,

For I don’t want to be like prey,

And let it sneak up,

And catch me by surprise.

One Shot

Irresponsible child,

You’re too young to understand,

Too immature,

What do you know?

You are not grown nor wise.

I want to reply back with my smart remarks,

Not only grey hairs show signs of being smart.

But I want to be nice so I say things with no harm,

I am a child with many talents,

Who capable of many things,

And words just fall down like rain,

These words I use express how I feel,

I know sometimes I keep it too real.

Honesty is a trait that I take pride in having,

Some can’t handle,

Others hold ground.

So why are you avoiding time.

Being scared is perfectly fine.

But I tell you there is nothing to hide

There isn’t any shame in falling from the sky,

To land in the arms in the one you want to trust,

I can tell that I one point you wanted to trust,

But I see now a different side.

One that is troubling,

One that is trying to hide.

Don’t understand this unusual behavior,

Having trouble dealing with your moods.

A blur is all I see,

As if light passed in front of me.

Slow down and tell me how you feel,

I have this feeling that your hiding something,

Something that has changed the way you feel.

You’re acting different,

Making me think,

Did I make a mistake,

In telling you what I think?

Attitude has been different,

We don’t talk the same.

You ignore the mention of my name,

Just tell me,

I’m not immature,

I’m a responsible young man,

Who knows the situation,

Is well aware of what yours is.

I have told you how I feel,

Yet you haven’t said a word,

Are you embarrassed as to what maybe heard.

You say I’m too young,

I tell you I’m not.

But you just won’t give me not even one shot.

Few Words

What is the point of trying,

When you feel all hope is lost.

When do you call it quits,

When you never get a response.

All this time I had hope,

All I wanted was a simple hello.

Couldn’t even muscle enough to say hi,

Now it seems like its time to say bye.

Don’t want to give up,

Not this easy.

A warrior always fights,

Even when he can’t breathe easy.

A tough battle,

I want to give up.

Something tells me that its just bad luck.

Just too busy,

Not the right time.

Seems like your always sleeping,

I catch you at the wrong time.

Could it be something I said,

If it was please be honest,

So I don’t loose my head.

Things in common,

Times are hard.

I understand the fact that you don’t want to go too far.

In no rush,

I feel pain too,

But this is something you must get through.

I can help,

Ease all your pain,

I went through almost the exact same thing.

But what I don’t understand is why,

Why do you seem to push me away.

I haven’t done anything to force you to go the wrong way.

A simple conversation,

Just to express a few words,

I’ll understand if I don’t deserve.