Fanaticizers

Thoughts arise like vapor from the ground,

Heated thoughts that don’t make sound.

Boiling up to the point of explosion,

Only to cause one poison.

Don’t know what to do,

Or what to say.

Like Doug E. Fresh once said: this type of s*it happens everyday.

Just like the seasons,

Feeling come and feeling go.

Although some stay and grow.

And in life you must learn to let grow.

Life is full of if’s just look at the word.

L IF E

So live with no doubts and learn from mistakes,

Because the mistakes made are lesson one takes that school does not certificate.

Hard knocks, tough love…

Call it what you’d like,

Those are things one learns in this battle called life.

So stay positive and put up a fight,

Most dogs bark and don’t bite.

Ball up a fist,

And stare life in the eyes,

Go toe to toe,

Like a heavy weight fight.

And as you sleep dream of what might be,

Then wake up and make them reality.

Dreamers that keep on dreaming turn into fanaticizes.

Drift

Loving the life,

I cannot complain,

So many obstacles have come my way.

Like a track star I jump over hurdles,

Racing to the finish line,

Only not knowing when to say my final dash.

Take it one day at a time,

Learn from your mistakes.

A re things that are said to a young fellow in the states.

It is a good experience,

Life is tough,

Are the things that are said when the lad has grown up.

Don’t dwell on your past,

Nor praise your future.

Enjoy your present,

For it’s what keeps you moving.

This is what the man has come to see,

A wise young fellow,

And a lad indeed.

Though at times he thinks about his past and what it could be,

If he had not left behind what once felt like a part of thee.

In those glimpses from the past, the future is untold.

For the what if’s start to unfold.

But without that past he would not have today.

So he rejoices in those times where he forgets,

His accomplishments and his new lifestyle,

Wondering though if he will on day remember what it was,

That made him drift so far apart…

Escuridad

Cierras tus ojos,

Imagínate un lugar donde estés solo…

Con nadie al lado tuyo.

Pensando en tu vida,

Imaginándote todo lo que tienes que hacer,

Y solo.

No tienes una pareja que te acompañe a ningún sitio.

Tu mundo en escuridad.

Todo lo que tu pensaste ante no vale para nada.

Tienes que empezar una vida nueva…y solo.

La persona que estaba para ti se a ido sin deciente nada.

Se fue para un mundo totalmente diferente a lo que ha vivido.

Para un mundo de mentira,

Pelea,

Y agonía.

También solo,

Con nadie a su lado.

Sin que nadie lo ayude.

Pero en estos momentos de escuridad ayee que ser fuerte.

Y luchar para lo que es importante para ti.

Si cera tu sueños o objetivos de carera.

No deje que nadie te diga lo contrario.

Sigue luchando para mejorar tu vida,

Y más importante en esos momentos de dudas.

Aunque se aparezca imposible,

Siempre ayee alguna manera para sobrevivir.

Gift

With so many what if's in life how does one live?

How does one go about their day without thinking about their past, present, and future?

What you have done in your past has lead you to where you are today so don't regret those moments.

Today is a gift, which is why it's called present.

So cherish every moment you have and use those moments to better your life.

With your present you plan for your future.

No matter what it may bring.

Future plans are never written in stone becasue one never knows what unexpected events may occur.

So learn from those stone writtings from the past so you don't repeat them in your future.

You never wait until tomorrow becasue tomorrow never comes becasue it turns into today.

Young Fellow

Wise man once said, be true to who you are.

Young fellow then replied, what if I don’t like what I’ve become?

Then you have to change your life, and settle all your debts.

Because no one wants a man who is left undressed.

Stripped from his integrity and left with his pride.

Nothing but doubt crosses his mind.

No matter where he goes the message is the same…

“You will never amount to anything, might as well give up on the game.”

So this fellow slips his pride into the pocket of his pants.

Hiding in what is now the shadow of “the man”

Waiting for the day where he can slip into the light,

And with his pride put up on hell of a fight.

Never Hold Off

Running through a labyrinth with twisted thoughts.

A gambling fiend with a broken heart.

Running wild like the cowboys in the west.

Scared to fall asleep because Freddy is waiting by your bed set.

I’m all in, placing my last bets.

Have a target on me like a matador in the ring.

It’s a bugs life for me in this dog eat dog world.

Sinking in class as the Titanic once did.

Never noticed how big this world really is.

Alpha wolf must learn to take a step back.

Fighting a creature that is haunting my world.

Has eight arms and legs with a body twice my size.

Has to have an intelligent mind.

For I am baffled and stunned.

As to how life just hit me so hard.

Line leader never ask for directions.

Yet I’m lost in this universe with no connection.

Have the green light but I just can’t move.

Motionless, paralyzed I seem.

All I want to do is dream.

Thinking of the future but wanting it today.

Never hold off until tomorrow because it always turns into today.

Many Faces...

What if I told you I put up a front to hide the real me. What if I told you I am not the man that seems to be. What if behind all the arrogance was a simple quiet man who just wanted to fit in. What if all the achievements were just so people could take notice. All his hard work was for him to stay focused. His intelligence was dwindled by the thought of being lazy. What if the ego was a protection so he wouldn’t get hurt. A massive wall put up so people wouldn’t climb and notice how fragile he was. Tough guy by appearance, emotional at hear. This man thinks way too much. Knows what to do but chooses to do the wrong thing. Hoping someone would notice him and send him back to the beginning. BUT NO! No one notices just lets him be. All his achievements squandered by this mans size. Ego that reaches up to the stars. No one dare to climb they think it’s too far. A man of few mistakes, in the people’s eyes. He has no faults this man never lies. Ruckus tries to avoid him, yet he is looking for the one that will ground him. For his head is stuck up in the sky. Floating among the stars not knowing where to hide. Just hoping that one day someone will stop and listen. Take notice of his humble self and his plain mission. To be simple yet unique. With someone by his side and an easy sleep. You see, sleepless nights haunt this man. For he has yet to set up a plan. Life is catching up, and mighty quick. He must react or just stand there and take the hit. For he has no idea what is to come. For he wasn’t prepared for the storm that is to come. He has been living in a fantasy world because no one dared to wake him up and show him our world. Intellectual thoughts, genius he is, everything seems easy…at least that is what they all see. For he knows the truth and he is scared to face it. Which is why he hides and has many faces.

Sky is the Limit?

Why say the sky is the limit when the stars are up above. Look at the man in the mirror, is he better than the one that stood in front? Why is it that people put negative thoughts in their minds? When a positive one can last a lifetime. So why aim for the sky when the stars are above? B humble with yourself and don’t cage yourself in your own ego. Open up the doors to a new world and quit living your life under the sea. Soar in the skies like the eagles do, but don’t limit yourself because we can walk on the moon. So look up at the sky and tell me what you see. Can you find yourself in that sea? What can you do for the people to take notice? All stars shine but it’s who shines the brightest. Daydreaming wont get you closer, but during the day you can dream of the equation…hard work times faith add a little luck subtract the negativity divided by life equals your end result…

Adventure

A new adventure,

A new life.

A strange world,

With this new adventure comes new things,

Different customs.

A change in ideas,

Which is what I’m looking for,

Change…

I won’t stray away from my beliefs,

Nor my faith,

Not even my morals,

That’s a part that won’t change.

So when you look for change,

Change comes…

A beautiful smile,

Sparkling eyes,

With a personality that shines.

Outgoing,

Funny at times,

Secret is your world,

Walls that I need to climb.

Twisted are my thoughts,

For I’m not used to this world.

This crazy adventure I’m in.

Keeping the ship at bay,

Waiting out for the calm of the storm,

Life hits you with some ridiculous situations,

It’s the intangibles you possess that allow you to make it through.

So continue with the “new” you and see where it leads you,

The heart will find its place sooner or later…

Made You

As time goes by things tend to change,

Situations you control,

And those that no one can change.

Situations arise when you least expect,

How you handle them makes you unique.

New adventures,

Journeys up rise and make you a new.

Have the courage to make it through.

So stop daydreaming,

Make those dreams a reality.

Let no one bring you down,

For they envy the things you have.

Jealousy controls the mind of those who hate.

So laugh off those who pretend to be your friends.

Keep in mind the end result,

For struggles will arise and make you halt.

Keep strong in faith and put God first.

Things will then fall into place.

Just have faith and wait.

Pray everyday for the blessings you have.

Give thanks for all the things in your past.

For they have brought you to where you are today,

And they have made you who you are today.

Lift Off

At first sight it was hard to see.

Took a quick glace,

Thought there was nothing that could be.

Amazingly cute.

Adorable I thought,

Then a halt…

You glanced back…

Took me by surprise.

Thought of it as nothing,

A simple hi was just.

Don’t know why the excitement,

Don’t know why the rush.

Relaxing,

Catching some sun.

A slight breeze in the air,

Then you showed up.

Amazed by the sight,

Couldn’t say a word.

Wasn’t introduced,

But no need to waste the words.

Keep quiet and to myself.

Would wonder off and take a look,

And notice that you were taking your looks.

Didn’t think much of it,

Had no idea the interest was there.

I don’t even know you I thought to myself,

Few conversations were held.

And of those my mind began to wonder,

What would happen if…

But the voice inside set itself on cruise control.

Taking it easy,

Taking it slow.

No need to rush,

No need to make a show.

Be the one you see,

The reflection in the mirror.

No worries Mr. Stark,

You’ll soon start…

The Legend

A master in disguise,

Like John Cena…you can’t see me,

A simple mind,

Yet complex thoughts.

A world full of adventures,

Not knowing where to start.

A shell for defense,

With a strike of the viper.

Hard to mold,

Yet so tender.

Confused the weak minded,

Those who lack wisdom.

Twisted with the words,

So there are many victims.

Your glance will leave you stoned like Medusas glare,

Few can tell how the man lives.

The legend of his life,

And the future which is bright for him.

Normal Life

Have you ever had the feeling of being alone?

Lost in the world to fend for your own.

Admired by many yet felt so alone.

Or friend to all and loved by his own.

A scary thought when the world seems to care,

Yet in reality no one does.

Lost in time,

Yet everyone knows who you are.

Scared within,

Although everyone sees the courage you bring.

Trusted by all,

Loyal to all,

A man of your word,

Yet all seems lost.

Alone in the dark,

And when you go home.

Broken hearted by all that you know.

Hopeless at times,

The thoughts in your mind.

Wishing you could turn back the hands of time.

And make everything feel alright.

And have a normal life….

Dove

Why do I feel as if nothing has changed.

As if the thought of you has never left my brain.

Have told me more than once,

Yet doubts still cross my mind.

As if a signal was missed,

And I lost my mind.

Paths never crossed in the mindset that I’m in,

Yet it seems as if you don’t want to give in.

To the reality of your nightmare.

No way no how you feel like this,

Don’t deserve a guy like this,

Who are you to judge when he is opening his arms,

And all you do is turn him on and off.

At days yes and some days no,

Confusing the hell out of his poor soul.

Nice cover with the new guy in your life,

Yet we all know that is just a lie.

A temporary fix,

Just to throw off his tricks.

A tough game played,

But it’s about to be over.

The one that would have given his all is about to fold over,

Give up…

Lose hope…

And not look back.

Try his luck in a different world,

And not go back.

To his past life,

Where it was full of immature games.

Played by people who just claimed,

To be ready to move on,

And settle down,

Yet all they found was another frown.

While the person that made them smile is off in another world,

Trying his luck and some lucky girl,

One who will give this guy a chance,

And test the young fellow,

To see if he knows how to dance.

A chance he has been dieing to get,

But has failed in each of his past few attempts.

None have cared,

But only laughed.

Heartbroken,

And teared is this lad.

Only to hope for his chance at love,

For he is still missing his dove…

God has helped me

God has helped me,

Become the man that you see.

So take me as you see,

Or let me be.

With You by my side I have no place to fall,

Only to look up and wait for my call.

No one can change who I am today,

God has helped me mold,

Into the man that you see today.

God has helped me,

Become the man that you see.

So take me as you see,

Or let me be.

Try to change me and you shall fall,

Many have tried and I still stand tall.

As the man that I want to be,

Standing tall independently.

I am me because God told thee.

God has helped me,

Become the man that you see.

So take me as you see,

Or let me be.

Strangers in thoughts,

Friends as we speak.

Thoughts and words get caught up so easily.

No change in the man that you see,

Try and you’ll fail miserably.

God has helped me,

Become the man that you see.

So take me as you see,

Or let me be.

No one can judge me,

Only witness my story,

As I pass by you in glory.

Fall to only one man,

Bend to His will,

No mortal soul can mend my skill.

For I am perfect in His eyes,

And He will help me touch the sky.

God has helped me,

Become the man that you see.

So take me as you see,

Or let me be.

Take Two

Don’t even know you,

Seen just a glimpse.

So how can one find a way to settle in.

Life isn’t easy,

A battle everyday,

A war that one will continue to fight until their last breath.

Desperate it may seem,

But it comes far from normality.

Emotions run like sprinters do,

Fast down the lane then stop as soon as they think the race is through.

But emotions take you on more than just a race,

Much like a marathon but mix in a roller coaster and a high speed chase.

Strange as it may seem,

Emotions run free,

Just have to be lucky like in the lottery.

To settle them down and know the way,

For if you stay young you’ll be stuck in that race.

Immature and stupid on might see,

But only to realize that its themselves that they see.

Scared for the future,

Afraid of their past,

A picky soul with no compass in hand.

Stuck in a battle that goes on forever,

With no one to help them fight off the pretenders.

But the one who contends is the one that will stay to help,

Yet is the one that gets left to fend for themselves.

Emotions in life are tough to swallow,

But something we all must learn to mend and follow.

Pray

All you have to do is pray.

No more standing around waiting for the day.

That day will never come,

Unless you talk to the man from above.

People don’t want to believe,

Yet we are all as happy as can be.

Only if we understand the true meaning of thee.

Not the ones who show up when they feel like it,

Not the ones who bad mouth His name,

Not the ones who commit those sins knowing they are in vein.

But the ones who sacrifice,

Their time,

Their talents,

And their will to carry on.

Those who follow His path and live His word.

Those who believe without seeing,

Those with true faith,

Those are the ones who are happy everyday.

So you can pretend that those airplanes are shooting stars,

And make your wish right now.

But wishes that come true don’t fill your tank of happiness,

Only a temporary joy.

Fantasies are far from reality,

Things you only see on the big screen.

Movies and Hollywood make them seem you can chase a dream.

You can run for years and not find joy.

But you can sacrifice your time and pray to the Lord.

You can say that it’s boring,

And nothing will happen,

But I know that praying will open those doors for great things to happen.

Lucky…some might say,

But I just look at it as the Lord blessing me along the way.

Endure So Much

Tell me how you do it,

Care for me so much,

At times I sit and wonder how you endure so much.

In times of need you care for me,

Countless times I have failed you yet you still walk by my side,

How in the world do you withstand such blasts,

And you don’t look back.

Tell me how you do it,

Care for me so much,

At times I sit and wonder how you endure so much.

You care for me when I don’t care for you,

You trust in me when I doubt everything in you,

How can you stand there with open arms and say that you love me when I don’t love myself,

Tell me how you do it,

Care for me so much,

At times I sit and wonder how you endure so much.

You see hope where others have given up,

You pray for us when we have sinned so much,

You believe in us when we don’t believe in you,

Why do you continue to do the things you do.

Tell me how you do it,

Care for me so much,

At times I sit and wonder how you endure so much.

I will never find out why you endure so much,

As to why you care so much,

But I will sit here and try to listen.

For a student must need a teacher to teach,

But some things are better off unsaid so I may still wonder why,

Why do you do it,

Care for me so much,

So I may sit and wonder how you endure so much.

L.O.V.E.

Love…

L - lost in the times spent with you,

Imagining things that I never thought could be true.

How is it possible that one could make one feel,

As if nothing in this world could turn the wheel.

O - obvious to me are the times I see,

Spent by your side,

Always at arms reach.

Never too far from my sight or my thoughts.

Just the mention of your name turns on that spark.

V - vast in my mind,

A memory as we speak,

Something special every time we meet.

A light in my tunnel,

The spark to my blaze,

Mesmerized by your gaze.

E - everything I seek,

I find in you.

Nothing you do can make me feel blue.

My heart warms at the thought of your name.

Its this that keeps me sane.

Everything I do is for you,

I must wait for what the future will look like,

So I must stay true.

Flashbacks

Flashbacks,

Memories from the past,

Makes you remember why it didn’t last.

Struggle to stay afloat,

Too many times the words were said,

Its these memories that still float in my head.

Flashbacks,

Memories from the past,

Makes you remember why it didn’t last.

The times I tried,

Countless conversations you didn’t listen,

Had to make a life changing decision.

Flashbacks,

Memories from the past,

Makes you remember why it didn’t last.

You say you have changed,

How I remember those words being said,

Time and time again.

Flashbacks,

Memories from the past,

Makes you remember why it didn’t last.

Beautiful Scene

Feels amazing,

How someone makes you feel.

The feeling you get when you see them,

Butterflies it may be,

Or magic like you see on TV.

Fire works on the fourth of July,

Time Square and the midnight sky.

A beautiful scene,

Like the mountains in the Rockies,

Or the stars in a clear sky.

Beach front in Maui,

Snow in the Alps.

Smile to my face,

Calmness to my heart.

I do not want to rush,

Only a simple brush,

When you past by to know I am there,

Just to feel that you are there.

Sparks of joy,

Times of fun.

Want to have the feeling of a slam dunk.

Book

All this thinking,

Making me want to explode,

Must keep a positive flow,

Running out of ideas,

And things to say,

Guess now its just counting down the days.

Hard to gauge,

Difficult to read,

Some days are full of uncertainty,

Plenty of laughs,

Lots of looks,

Short conversations,

Dramatic speech,

What does this all really mean?

Feelings you show are hard to read,

Like a long book with tiny font,

Why do you seem to put up a front,

Hard to breach walls,

Not fair to the rest,

Don’t live on past events,

Might lose the future you seek.

On track with a positive look,

Much like a really good book.

One that you can’t put down,

Must stay on the read,

A fantastic adventure,

Wild fantasies,

Comic relief for the tough times that will be,

Sorrow and grief for the times we try to avoid as we meet,

Pleasure and pain,

Lose then train,

These thought in the brain,

Winning is all that is left in order to maintain.

Good Luck

Flip a coin,

What are the odds,

Seems like the feelings I see from a far,

Heads one day,

Tails the other,

Keep on flipping,

Feeling might stay,

Or just change,

Test your luck,

What’s the reward,

Life is a gamble,

But yours is stuck on hold,

Wants to move on,

“Luck” isn’t on your side,

Just flip a coin,

And let it decide,

Might as well because your killing me,

This indecisive mentality,

Make a decision and make it quick,

I have already laid down my chips,

Not quiet all in,

But the pot is big,

Place a bet and test your luck,

Chances with a coin are in your favor,

So just flip that coin,

And make your call,

Let’s see if your luck is good luck after all.

Not Mine

I take it step by step,

Not wanting to rush,

Take my time so I don’t mess up.

Out of my league one might see,

But I see thing differently.

I know what I can bring,

Just a chance and no uncertainty,

What I see in you is something I must say.

It’s not hard to explain,

Just difficult to say,

Your presence makes me smile,

Your eyes I need to gaze,

Your smiles brightens my day.

Perfect in my eyes,

Yet not mine…

My Mind

Sorry to say but I am the one to blame,

For allowing feelings to grow.

Misguided,

But no wrong intention.

Only the thought of friendship crossed my mind.

But I knew something before,

Before you even asked,

And that is what led me to the conclusion I have.

Someday you will light up someone’s world,

With a smile that can make a man twirl.

Eyes to get lost in,

But not me not right now.

Because someone else occupies my mind.

Twist

Funny how things play out,

When you think you have it all planned out,

Something comes up quick,

And life takes a twist.

No matter how much you plan,

No matter how long you wait,

Things never seem to go your way,

Agenda at hand,

Pencil to write,

Don’t use a pen because you will scratch off twice,

Funny how things play out,

When you think you have it all planned out,

Something comes up quick,

And life takes a twist.

Life in the fast lane,

Better move quick,

Jack be nibble,

Jack be quick,

Moving so fast,

Didn’t bother to think about the past,

Funny how things play out,

When you think you have it all planned out,

Something comes up quick,

And life takes a twist.

Scary on what the future may hold,

No one will ever know,

Just live life day by day,

Because tomorrow is not promised today.

Learn from the past,

Act on the future.

One never knows how their life will end up.

Because its funny how things play out,

When you think you have it all planned out,

Something comes up quick,

And life takes a twist.

The Rest

Don’t know how you do it,

Somehow you control me.

The meer thought has me on one knee,

A feeling that can’t be explained,

One that may make one go insane.

You and only you to blame,

I can’t seem to figure it out,

How my life just flipped upside down.

Down to earth,

Humble and sweet,

These are things you show towards me,

I want so much more,

But things don’t look so good.

You don’t seem to share the same feelings as I do.

I could keep trying,

But all I do is fail.

Why do I seem so strong yet am so frail.

Why is it that certain people bring out a different scale.

One that is hard to balance,

Tough to read,

Hard to grasp,

Not easy to see.

Plan for the future some might say,

But how does on plan for something they don’t know,

Just guess and hope its going their way.

How can you predict the future if you are living now,

And at the same time forget about the past and the things that make you frown,

Life is simple,

Short and sweet,

Its what you make it to be.

So learn from your past,

Never wait until tomorrow,

You don’t know if it will wait for you,

So enjoy life now and don’t let good things slip through.

For you don’t know if the one that was waiting left you.

Don’t dwell on your past to avoid the new,

For this can cause you to truly lose,

Ignoring the signs presented to you,

Will cause more stress onto you,

Give now a chance,

And pray for the best,

One may never know if now is better than what you will ever get.

Night

Its all coming together,

These feeling I hold inside,

Questions answered by those from the outside,

Funny how things play out,

When you play all alone,

Seems like no one is on your side,

And nothing goes your way,

Only get piled up with more on your mind,

There is no escape,

Like trapped in a maze,

Labyrinth at that,

Being chased by a monitor,

Hoping you don’t get trapped.

But I’m trapped in a maze,

Does that make me amazing?

But my mind is clearing up,

Fog lights still on,

Have a long trip ahead,

Road goes on and on.

Bumps along the way,

I am sure of that,

Try and limit those bugs hitting the windshield,

So my vision isn’t so blurry,

And I can steer the wheel,

In the right direction I suppose,

Weaving through traffic,

Life speeding up,

Life in the fast lane,

Can’t catch up,

But I need to slow down,

And take things slow.

For I am in need of something,

So stay in the right lane,

And watch others go past,

And hope someone notices when they past by,

So I don’t have to travel home alone,

When I travel at night.

Shy

Stressing over nothing,

Have nothing going on.

But something is buggin’,

What the hell is going on?

Why do I think,

About things I can’t control.

Letting life get a little out of control.

Need to take a step back,

And just take it easy.

Fall back and breathe,

This might not be easy,

So why am I so scared,

Scared to find out the truth,

Why must I hide my feelings,

Why can’t I stay true.

I put up a wall when I am around you,

Can’t explain it,

Don’t know why it happens,

Shy I am,

Scared I shall be,

These things you might not believe,

I put up a front so others don’t see the real me.

I just want to ask you,

But I am afraid of what the answer might be,

Even though I have a feeling it won’t be in favor of me,

I get a mixed vibe,

Weird emotions from you,

But I don’t really know because I never approached you.

Keeping my distance from what I think will be,

Just because I know how I will be,

So scared I shall stay,

Shy I will be,

Until I build up enough courage to ask thee.

Stay

Mayhem,

Loads of ruckus,

Head aches come up like raising mountains.

Fire burning like the Olympic flame,

Never going out like an inmate in the cage.

Endless flow like Niagara Falls,

Like the Phoenix I never fall.

Temptations arise,

And darkness falls.

O how I wonder how I get through,

Sometimes it seems so tough,

But this is the time when you use your strength,

For it will help you take things away.

Alone I might be,

But that don’t bother me.

For I know one day I’ll be happy.

Until that day comes,

I won’t be done,

I’ll keep on looking for that special one that comes my way,

So I can live my life knowing that she is there to stay.

Finding Thee...

Look out to the ocean,

What do I see?

Nothing but blue,

And some clouds in the scene.

Take a dive,

Go out to the blue.

O the adventure that will surround you.

Treasure you might find,

Or an unexpected guest that took you surprise.

Down at the bottom looking through,

Find a pebble,

Set out to be seen.

The most beautiful thing I have eve seen.

Full of life,

Full of joy,

The feelings brought on by this tiny stone.

Mystery it might seem,

And it’s hard to see.

The water is too deep,

Must walk in shallow waters before you go out and swim,

So like the pebble that was in front of thee,

Be patient and the right one will find thee…

Realize

Its funny to me how one can be,

So full of uncertainty.

Old enough to buy a drink,

But too young to realize what’s in the sink.

Take a step back and just gaze,

You are not trapped in that maze.

Realize and take a chance,

All I want is a simple dance.

Guess I haven’t been the nicest guy,

But not all of us wear a disguise.,

You see…I am what you see,

I don’t go around like a bumble bee.

I pick and choose the best flowers,

And yes those are very hard to find.

Hoping that one day you take to listen,

And reminisce on the times that should have glisten.

Have a feeling that the show has come to a stop,

Seems to me like we didn’t pop.

No hard feelings,

I wont be different.

Just move on,

Just stay friends,

In the end it will all make sense.

East/West

As I look east,

As I look west,

All I see is a wonderful sight.

Light up my day,

Like the sun and its rays.

Sometimes I sit and just gaze.

How could something so sweet be in front of me.

Don’t even want to blink.

Afraid of letting time slip by,

Want to hold on to time,

I know we don’t see eye to eye.

I’m just a friend on the side.

Guess I would just have to live with that,

Trying so hard to keep back,

I know the situation at hand,

Not wanting to rush to hold your hand.

A simple hug is what I want,

Meaningful to both,

Want no pity,

Just the truth.

Ignore the things that are said around you,

If I did not say,

Then it wasn’t said.

Not one to play games,

I mean what I say.

More mature for my age,

I can play on the big stage.

But I can’t perform by myself,

Must need someone to help.

Just want you to notice that I’m not like the rest,

So don’t compare me to past events.

Unique,

Genuine,

Sincere,

I am here,

Let me know if you want to come near…

One Day...

In the need,

Just to hold,

Longing for someone to call my own.

Letting life just past me by,

Not with much to worry but still with no one by my side.

Not saying I need,

But I would be nice,

Just to sit down and cuddle,

And laugh at silly things all night.

Whisper in your ear,

Tell you how I feel,

All of that seems so surreal.

Simple as simple gets,

Doesn’t take a lot to impress,

Simple things in life is what matter most,

Don’t need any diamonds or any gold,

A simple gesture to show that you care,

Is all I ask for to know that your still there.

Fancy things don’t mean a thing,

I only want just one thing.

That special someone to call my name,

And say that they care,

Just like I do,

And enjoy the simple things I do.

Cuddle and laugh at the most randomest things.

Hang out and relax,

No need to go out and spend cash,

Special moments I would like to share,

But in no rush,

I have time to spare,

Why rush something that isn’t there,

Wanting something you can’t have,

Will only lead to a never ending pain.

Just sit back and wait is what I shall do,

God will bless me which whom he thinks is true,

Until that time I shall live life the same,

Hoping that one day…

Alone, Lost in thoughts

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Who could of imagined that I would be stuck.

By myself with nothing to hold on too.

Loss of breath,

Gasping for air.

Seems like I am going in despair.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Who could have imagined that I was being out ran.

An athlete who could run for days,

Is being out ran by this mysterious wave.

Hard to keep up,

Losing ground,

Only to sprint and then go back down.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Out in silence,

Hardly any sound,

The two in one room,

With no one around.

Just the beating of two hearts,

Simultaneously as one.

Is the picture I imagine.

Yet there is none.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

Deep like the sea,

Cold as the pits.

What strange things lie in these depths.

Creatures of all sizes,

Mean like a bully,

Who picks on the little one.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts.

What must a nice guy do to get what he wants,

He listens to stories,

Stays true to his word.

Jokes around.,

Just to keep things loose.

So I would like to be first,

But some nice guys finish last.

Alone,

Lost in thoughts…

Abyss

Turn off the lights,

What do you see,

Do I shine in your eyes,

As you do to me.

Am I hard to see,

Or am I clear.

Must you feel around to see if I am near.

Alone you must feel,

In the dark,

An endless pit,

A dreadful abyss.

Do not worry,

Flip that switch,

What do you see…

One day I hope its me.

I know for a fact I won’t let you fall,

You wouldn’t have to worry about feeling for walls.

Don’t fall in the pit,

Or let the pendulum swing,

The smell in the abyss is horrific.

Wouldn’t want you to fall,

Nor smell its stinginess.

Not going to rush,

It’s not a race,

I shall take my time,

Like a mouse in a maze.

For confusing at times,

And hard to see,

But in the end there is certainty.

A reward for the trouble that was.

I just hope the maze isn’t too hard.

Superstar

Bass hits hard,

Rims is spinnin’,

Livin’ that life,

Just keep on winnin’,

All this fame,

All this glory,

Funny how life just seems like a story.

High life,

Fast lane,

Wishes and dreams seem to go my way.

All of this at once,

Feels like gold,

Like in 1849 when Cali struck gold.

Fortune and fame,

Can make you go insane,

Just be careful,

This world is cruel,

Two headed monsters,

And people who like to duel.

Insane in the membrane,

Quoting Cypress Hill,

Some of these people will have you running,

And going up a hill.

Only to realize you can live alone,

This fast paced lifestyle will take a toll,

One with a hefty fee,

One that you cannot pass so easily.

Live and learn from the tolls that you’ve past.

And don’t let the one,

Stray from too far from your grasp.

Relax

Ever had a feeling of wanting something to grow,

But something told you to let go.

Let things go and see how long it last,

Save the suffering and end it fast.

Continuous flow,

Stop before one gets old.

Live with no regrets,

Play it safe and ignore the rest.

Lets flip the script,

And twist things around.

How long do you think it will stay around.

Wanting to let loose,

And forget about the worries,

Live a life of mellowness,

With no worries.

Chill to the bone,

Relaxed and in control,

Hakunamatata,

That is the phrase,

Live a life of no worries,

For the rest of your days.

It’s the way I try to live,

But something always gets in the way.

Thoughts in my mind that won’t go away.

I live in the moment but always think about what’s at hand.

The future still isn’t clear,

Yet it’s placed in my hands.

Must play my pieces correctly,

To stay in this chill land.

Fuss

Words get mixed up,

Feeling get crossed,

Sometimes like an octopus,

With its eight arms.

Words fly freely,

Like an eagle in the sky.

Only to come down,

And take you by surprise.

Hard to remember,

Lost the thought,

The words that are spoken seem to get lost at heart,

Confusion arise,

Doubt causes the fall.

No need to utter,

Just read between the lines.

Different meanings in every word.

People might take them and make them their own,

Feel free to think what you please,

To everyone there will be something else to see,

So don’t fill the mind with uncertainty,

Just relax and listen to the story I tell.

If you read carefully you’ll understand,

How hard it is for me to grab your hand,

I’m still lost in the words that I say,

People don’t make things easier with words they state.

Must take it one day at a time,

All this ruckus can make someone lose their mind.

Time to relax and let it all out,

Leave it all in His hands,

And pray it all works out.

Twist

LMFAO,

Who would have known,

Script is flipped,

Wow what a twist.

Lucky for me I didn’t think much of,

Just a feeling,

That I had in my gut,

Thank you for making things SO clear,

Caught me by surprise,

Indeed my dear.

Oh well,

Life ain’t nothing but pain,

And its how you handle it that keeps you sane,

Think too much and it’ll hurt your membrane.

Ha ha…

You could have said it from the start,

To avoid the trouble that it has brought,

Now I see what you thought of me,

Just a passerby,

Waiting for nothing to be.

Went back to the old ways,

Hoping things would change,

Guess you couldn’t let go,

Now I won’t look at you the same.

Flirtatious vibe,

Not going to lie,

Hurt just a little,

Just the fact that I was brittle,

Gave something a chance,

That I knew had no hope.

I guess its something that I must let go.

Broken wing…

Ha that’s a nice joke,

Now I won’t even poke,

Funny how you lead me to believe,

That there was nothing for me to see.

Its fine,

No hard feelings,

I know that I am better off,

I don’t enjoy playing silly games,

I am at a more serious stage.

Let time pass,

I’ll be alright,

Now its time for me to really open my eyes.

And take notice of what I have,

So my eyes can see on my hearts behalf…

Favor

Why must someone endure so much,

What joy does that bring them.

How can one live through the sorrow,

And hope for a reward.

When everything seems lost,

And all hope is gone,

When will it end?

What does one do?

Where does one go?

Who does one talk too?

So many questions float in ones mind,

Asking themselves why…

Why does this happen to me,

All of this at once,

All of this uncertainty.

Lost in the rubble,

Stuck in a trance,

No one can help,

Stuck in a trap,

Sinking in quick sand,

And no where to grasp,

Yelling for help,

No one seems to hear,

How could this happen to someone so dear.

Go through so much pain,

Yet be so sincere,

Loveable as they are,

Helpful they may be,

I know the truth of what lies beneath,

How can I help,

I must act now,

Time is against me,

The clock ticking now.

Slipping away is the time I have left,

Have to figure out a way to make things rest.

Try some luck,

And pray for the better,

And hope that God plays a hand in their favor.

Surprise

Have time on my hands,

So its time to clean up.

Thinking how my world was flipped,

Just like that.

Wondering how I got here,

In my state of mind,

Lost and confused,

With more questions to sure arise.

Don’t know what to think,

Or how to act.

Must sit down and pray,

And let God pull something from his hat.

I don’t believe in magic,

But I do know one thing is true,

I just have to be patient,

And let Him go to work.

I’ve done all that I can to make things right,

Now its up to God to put things in sight.

Hope my vision isn’t too bad,

I don’t want to lose something that I had in my grasp.

I have a feeling,

Something strange,

I shall ponder on this,

For I don’t want to be like prey,

And let it sneak up,

And catch me by surprise.

One Shot

Irresponsible child,

You’re too young to understand,

Too immature,

What do you know?

You are not grown nor wise.

I want to reply back with my smart remarks,

Not only grey hairs show signs of being smart.

But I want to be nice so I say things with no harm,

I am a child with many talents,

Who capable of many things,

And words just fall down like rain,

These words I use express how I feel,

I know sometimes I keep it too real.

Honesty is a trait that I take pride in having,

Some can’t handle,

Others hold ground.

So why are you avoiding time.

Being scared is perfectly fine.

But I tell you there is nothing to hide

There isn’t any shame in falling from the sky,

To land in the arms in the one you want to trust,

I can tell that I one point you wanted to trust,

But I see now a different side.

One that is troubling,

One that is trying to hide.

Don’t understand this unusual behavior,

Having trouble dealing with your moods.

A blur is all I see,

As if light passed in front of me.

Slow down and tell me how you feel,

I have this feeling that your hiding something,

Something that has changed the way you feel.

You’re acting different,

Making me think,

Did I make a mistake,

In telling you what I think?

Attitude has been different,

We don’t talk the same.

You ignore the mention of my name,

Just tell me,

I’m not immature,

I’m a responsible young man,

Who knows the situation,

Is well aware of what yours is.

I have told you how I feel,

Yet you haven’t said a word,

Are you embarrassed as to what maybe heard.

You say I’m too young,

I tell you I’m not.

But you just won’t give me not even one shot.

Few Words

What is the point of trying,

When you feel all hope is lost.

When do you call it quits,

When you never get a response.

All this time I had hope,

All I wanted was a simple hello.

Couldn’t even muscle enough to say hi,

Now it seems like its time to say bye.

Don’t want to give up,

Not this easy.

A warrior always fights,

Even when he can’t breathe easy.

A tough battle,

I want to give up.

Something tells me that its just bad luck.

Just too busy,

Not the right time.

Seems like your always sleeping,

I catch you at the wrong time.

Could it be something I said,

If it was please be honest,

So I don’t loose my head.

Things in common,

Times are hard.

I understand the fact that you don’t want to go too far.

In no rush,

I feel pain too,

But this is something you must get through.

I can help,

Ease all your pain,

I went through almost the exact same thing.

But what I don’t understand is why,

Why do you seem to push me away.

I haven’t done anything to force you to go the wrong way.

A simple conversation,

Just to express a few words,

I’ll understand if I don’t deserve.

Buzzer Beater...

You can fool me once,

But you won’t fool me twice.

Thought you would want to give this a try.

Now I see that I wasn’t the one playing games.

Call me immature,

A child in your eyes.

What you fail to realize is what lies inside.

Look in the mirror and what do you see.

Its not the mature person you once thought you’d be.

Honesty helps,

I won’t take things to heart.

I would if you lie,

Then flip things upside down.

Two face,

Leave that up to the movies,

I don’t want to be acting,

This ain’t no play.

It’s called life,

Ever care to gaze?

Stop living in this fantasy world,

Only Disney lives on in the happy world.

Nothing ends happily ever after,

Most things in life end in disaster.

Take risks like the game we don’t like to play,

Life is too long like a Monopoly game.

Shuffle your deck,

Pick out a card,

Only a magician can pick the right one.

I can’t do magic,

I can only do me.

This I know for certainty.

Stop playing trick,

And get in the game,

The longer you wait,

The less I’ll be willing to stay.

One last shot,

Like a game winner.

Clock is ticking,

Lets not wait until the buzzer beater…

Out Of My Mind

Angry at the moment,

Don’t know why.

This feeling I have…

Making me lose my state of mind.

Can’t stand the pressure,

Those words are hard for me to say,

For I am fearless,

And I will never back away.

Times are tough,

Decisions are bold.

Have to learn how to control.

Really can’t explain this feeling I have inside.

It boggles me to even think I show it on the outside.

Try to keep a front,

So that no one sees how I feel,

Some of my emotions just seem too unreal.

Must stay focus and see beyond the wheel.

See what lies on the road ahead,

So that I may avoid a collision,

Head to head.

Stay in my lane,

And in my state of mind.

For when I am lost,

I fall so far behind.

Must find a way to keep these troubles out of my mind.

For The Best

Mind is blank,

Frustration has arrived.

Crazy ideas just rush through my mind.

Don’t know how they got there,

Or if they will even work.

Stressful it has become,

To cope with all this junk.

At some point I will break,

Don’t want to see that day,

Have to learn to do less,

So that I may do more.

Have too many things on my plate,

With not enough space.

I seem too stack up more and more,

Only to leave that on my plate.

At times I wish I could start over,

And not do so many things,

But I feel that if I don’t help out things won’t be the same.

A have a strong personality,

One that is hard to break,

Which is why I get involved in the things I do.

They require someone like me,

To lead them and guide them to where they need to be.

May not be the best example,

But I will try my best.

Only time will tell if what I did was for the best.

Stronghold

Random thoughts in my head,

Ones that must be expressed.

Thoughts that make one think of what might lie ahead.

Ones that make you ponder on how one should act.

Open up your thoughtfulness,

Or just stay trapped.

Ever get the feeling of being ignored,

Used,

Or mistreated.

Feel as if people are teasing.

Try to be nice,

Try to understand,

Sometimes one can’t withstand,

At times things get tough,

Losing trust,

Hope,

And faith.

These are the times were one must stay strong.

Talk to the ones that ignore you,

Let them know you are still there.

Comfort the ones that use you,

For they are in despair.

Be nice to the ones that mistreat you,

For they are scared.

Remember all the joy in life,

When you feel like no one cares.

It’s in these hard times when one must stay strong.

Not to lose the trust,

Which they have bestowed.

Always having hope,

Because someday there will be gold.

Never let go of faith,

That is your stronghold.

Delight

Feel like a kid with all these jokes,

Want to grow up but I cant let go.

Feels good to joke around,

Keeps me laughing,

Keeps me on the ground.

I don’t want to be lost in this world called “real”.

Superficial glamour,

And fortunes that are not real.

Temptations,

Lust,

Greed,

All pollute this world,

Have to see the good things in life so I won’t go overload.

Which is why I joke around to stay on a lively state of mind.

Don’t want to be the mean guy in the street.

The one who people run from,

Or the one they never want to greet.

So I get by the bad times by telling jokes and living loose.

I want to roam around like a horse in the wild,

Only to stop and stare and at the beauty around.

The beauty I see is in you,

At the moment I cannot feel blue.

Blue is meant for the sky above,

I am a mere man that is stationed on land.

Only to look up at the clear blue sky,

To hope to never have that feeling inside,

Must look past the blue in the sky,

For the stars at night like to hide.

Must move fast to clear the way,

For the clouds are easy to move if I you know how to sway,

So that one day my star may shine bright,

And that my future maybe full of delight.

Detail

Mind in one direction,

Thoughts are coming through,

Not a day goes by without me thinking about you,

Only to say hi,

Or see how your day has been,

It’s not an obsession,

Not even close to love,

Just a curious thought towards the one I’m thinking of.

A smile on my face every time I hear your name,

A glow around you when your in my presence,

Enjoy the moments as if they were presents.

Lift me up if I have had a bad day,

Or if I was exhausted you bring energy my way.

We don’t really talk,

We just mingle.

Get a good vibe,

But that’s just how I feel inside.

A bit more friendly when you are around.

And I have notice that you don’t mind when I am around.

A pinch of kindness is all I need,

A sign from you so I could open up to thee.

Waiting for that moment when I truly feel calm,

To open up myself and let it all out.

That time doesn’t seem soon,

Things are nice and slow,

I just wish I could hold thy hand,

Or even hug a little more.

Just want the feeling of someone in my arms,

They feel empty,

As if there were no cookies in the cookie jar.

To hold a hand,

Or feel a hug.

Something true and not just a gesture to warm some ones heart.

I am in no rush,

Because I know your circumstance,

So don’t feel pressured,

I don’t want you to feel that.

Want to be the nice guy,

The one who really cares.

The one who will listen to every last detail.

Unorthodox

Peace at mind,
One with nature.
There is a calmer side to this rebel,
Seems to be like everyone is against him but he won't go down without a fight.
Disrespectful he might seem,
But that is because you don't see. There is a passion burning within,
One he won't let no one get in the way.
Unorthodox might be his ways,
But generations change as do the methods used to get a message in the brain.
Misunderstood,
Not welcomed,
But there is one bigger problem.
This unorthodox rebel won't go away.
His ways will stay and you won't like it.
But it the beginning of a new era,
And this era is bond to stay.

Back in Time

Going back in time,

Remembering my old days.

In a time machine,

Looking back at the old me.

Remembering how I used to be.

And what I thought would always be.

Never thought of it much until just now.

How I never lost the touch I once found.

The feeling was always in my heart,

Yet could never figure how to take it apart.

Thought it would fade,

And I thought it once did,

But the feeling came back once I started again.

Thinking back at the times I spent.

Out by the locker and by the fence.

In the morning by the basketball post,

In the afternoon by the bus loop.

Never thought I would remember the day,

When I thought I lost the thing that made my day.

A few years have past sense the thought has occurred,

But now that I am thinking it can’t help but grow.

I wonder what this could all mean,

But I think of what it used to be.

The thought was in my mind for quite some time,

But too many things got in the way.

Seemed to move on,

I lived my life,

Sparks kept on appearing but would soon die.

Now the chance has spurred up again,

Only this time I am speaking within,

Words fly out like bats from a cave,

Looking for a place stay.

Hopefully finding a place to feed,

So that they may grow and continue to live free.

Only time will tell if its just another spark,

But this time I don’t think it will dim out or move on,

Because the seed was planted and now thoughts moves along,

Like water falling from a waterfall.

Only to find somewhere to splash,

And one day calm down and touch land.

Turtle

All work and no play,

Who says a grown up can’t have both in one day.

Matured young man,

Yet acts like a kid.

Hard at work,

Yet all you do is play.

Paying your bills,

But having fun.

What kind of grown up plays both parts.

Hard shell,

To protect the soft inside.

More like a turtle,

Who fights by ones side.

Tough as nails,

Sweet as candy.

Such a harsh man,

But gentle to the touch.

This guy knows what to do in such.

A balance of both worlds.

One who works hard,

With no frail.

Has enough time to play,

And chill as if he doesn’t care.

Must be a good life to live,

But one thing is missing in the life of this kid.

Is a companion,

One who he can blend with.

Someone to spoil with his unselfish ways.

No matter how busy his day he will always seem to look her way.

Close Friends

I like the fact that we are friendly,

And how things have slightly changed.

Enjoy the fact we talk more often,

I don’t want this to altered.

I can keep this feeling secret,

Or let it all just hang,

And not care about what others think,

Because on one else really cares.

I my trust grows day by day.

The more we talk the more I want it to stay.

This feeling of being wanted,

A feeling I know might change,

But at the time right now it feels like I am sane.

Mentally stabled,

Ready and able,

To tackle something new on.

A challenge it might be,

The one between you and me,

Because we hardly know each other,

We don’t know what the other see’s.

I know your trust in me has grown,

For you tell stories that I would have never known,

I know I am matured,

But a kid at heart.

That is one thing that will never spilt apart.

A chance is given,

To the good guy in town,

I just hope it goes better this time around.

One Run

Look up at the sky,

It’s a bird,

It’s a plane,

Those are just countless dreams that make one go insane.

Can’t help but wonder of what it could be,

If maybe just one dream would come rescue me.

I pray to the heavens,

I pray to my God,

I have had blessing,

But questions still fall.

What am I doing?

How do I live?

These things still bother but I can not give in.

My dreams are big,

I shall not give up hope.

For I am determined to end up where I imagine myself,

Only a pro.

Hard work pays off,

Haven’t worked hard enough,

For I am still in the slump looking at the top.

Must stay focused,

Have to stay rich,

For my love for the game is what gives me the pinch.

A motive to continue,

A way to fight back,

Through all those tough times I wish would never had past.

My dreams are sky high,

Even reaching the stars,

And if I fall I know I won’t fall too far.

By reaching for the stars I shall fall in the clouds,

And that is better off than still being on ground.

Let my motivation carry me along the way.

And may I win the battles so I don’t stray.

Time to buckle down and get things done.

For life only gives you one run.

Solved

LOL smiley face after everything I write,

You make me laugh,

And you shine like a star in the sky.

We were both confused and it was funny to me,

I guess the way I am was hard for you to see,

Took me a while to build up the nerve,

But I am glad I didn’t curve.

It was a little surprise that you once had no clue,

But I guess at times everyone plays guess who.

Scrabble my letter to make them words,

Stories came out and spun in your world,

Confused you were as to who was the mystery,

At first surprised but then seemed happy.

Am glad you played the silly little game,

Others would have grown tired and pushed me away,

I had a feeling that you knew all along,

But I guess I was wrong there too because you didn’t know what was going on.

Now it is settled,

We have both agreed,

That the mystery lady was you indeed.

Interested in seeing where this case might lead,

Although it is solved,

We will still have to wait and see.

Slick with the words,

Ease to the mind,

The words that spill I can stop time,

Let you imagine of what these words mean,

We are just friends that laugh and be silly,

Single we might be,

At least for the time now you see,

Who would have thought that a guy like me,

Would grow up one day and meet thy mystery.

My Story

Inspired by a friend…

Drowning in confusion,

Lost in the dark,

Must cross the Ring of Fire,

Or go off on an expedition across the sea.

Half way across the world,

Is where I might find you,

Maybe that is where you will be.

But in what state of mind,

My head won’t be clear.

Excommunicated,

Lost in my own world,

Thought you were my everything,

I gave you my whole world.

But it seems you threw it all away.

I could be mistaken,

There is still hope.

Only because I love you too much to just let go.

Don’t want my time to be wasted,

I just want to know,

How much do I have to work to get a simple hello.

I understand that your busy,

But I feel so lost.

I thought we were a team,

But you just took off.

How can one be apart of something that the other wants nothing of.

Growing tired of your games,

And tiered of your lies.

I want something more but you just push me aside.

I want to move on but I am holding on to hope.

But the hope is slipping like a rope.

Farther and farther you seem to go,

I don’t know how much longer my grip will hold.

Thought was we had was meant to be,

But by the looks of it I guess it was just a fantasy.

I know my dreams,

I know what I want to do,

I just thought one day I could share them with you,

But as of now my life is on hold,

Because the one that I thought I loved is going overboard.

Mystery

Tiered from all the moving,

Can’t feel my legs,

My head is spinning,

Feels like I’m going insane.

The thought of you puts me at ease,

A smile on my face,

Or a grin just to tease.

The mystery that revolves around you,

Some know and others have no clue,

Thy mystery lady,

What shall I do,

I want to tell you but my words seem to confuse you.

Innocent thoughts run through your mind,

Countless wonders race across time,

Oh how I dream of just telling you the truth,

But I know now that it must be kept from you.

My mystery girl what shall I do,

You seem clueless and I don’t know what to do.

The mystery seemed solved,

But that only opened the case.

For you are going in circles while I sit here and wait.

I am enjoying this silly little game that we play,

For I hope one day you come my way.

The only thing left is for me to tell you how I feel,

But I have given enough signs to let you know and its your turn to play the field,

I have laid down my cards and placed my bet,

But I am waiting on yours for you seem to be wondering,

Your facial expressions are saying to raise the pot,

But the game of poker is testing your luck.

One day you will find out who the mystery winner is,

Until then I will continue to play and fool you with the words within.

Thoughts Of You

A feeling of depression,

Can’t even count to two,

My mind is going in circles,

I just don’t know what to do.

I want to just talk,

About the most randomest things.

Go late into the night,

And just giggle at stupid things.

Never have I had the pleasure of holding you in my arms,

Never have I felt the gloss that you put on.

Mesmerizing eyes is what I see,

And am smile from that could light up a tree.

Your style is so rare,

Sometimes I can’t bare,

I smile at the thought of your presence,

And the thought of my fingers running through your hair.

I just want to hold you,

And cuddle by your side,

Sit down and watch a movie,

Laugh and even cry by your side.

Tickle you and make fun of your silly habits,

And tell you that you are more than I could ever imagine.

The thought of you puts butterflies inside,

I just wish I had the courage to tell you how I feel inside.

As I am writing you are all I see,

And I picture myself with you for all eternity.

Travel

I feel like traveling the world,

But don’t want to go by myself,

I feel like building up the nerve,

But I can’t see myself,

Need life to smoothen out,

Something must happen before I plan things out,

Face full of worry,

Heart full of fear,

Can hold on to anything because thy palms are teared,

Grip is slipping,

Don’t know what to do,

Can’t go a day without thinking about what feels true,

Mixed emotions from people around,

That might be the problem with me unfolding and taking a bound.

Life is to short,

Must not live in fear,

I know this so why must I hide and avoid my tears.

Life does the twist,

Don’t know that dance move.

Life has taken too many turns,

Might get lost soon but I must not detour,

Must stay on track,

To fulfill my goal,

So that one day I might be able to hold on to my own.

Thy most rarest pearl one can find,

An angel from heaven,

A perfect dove flying by,

Your beauty is unmatched,

No parallel,

So how can one have a chance at someone so fly.

A gambling man,

Just playing my cards,

Trying to win the pot,

Be lucky and use my charm,

Stay true to myself,

And what I believe,

For one day I know that we will be,

So until then I shall just look and admire thee.

Slow and Steady

Ready, Set, Go!

It’s just a race,

Don’t know how much longer I can take,

Life moving so fast,

Can’t see what’s moving past,

Need to slow down before I hit the ground.

Can’t keep up the paste like the rabbit did in the race,

Must be like the turtle,

Who was moving slow and at times nocturnal,

Slow and steady will win the race,

But right now it must be at a high fly rate.

Beating so fast heart about to explode,

This emotion inside is hard to hold.

Thought of joy that’s hard to keep inside,

Man how a kid must feel when he sees their prize.

Eyes light up like a kid in a toy store,

Running around like I just had the whole candy store.

Feeling so fly I could fly with the kites,

Feeling so calm like a walk through a meadow,

This feeling I can’t keep inside,

Wonder what would happen if I let the butterflies outside,

They are flapping their wings waiting for the cue,

Or when will my courage be past due.

Must be like the turtle and take it slow,

Because if I move fast my change might blow.

Slow and steady will win the race,

I just hope that I can keep pace.

Kingdom

Like horses out the stable,

Emotions running wild,

I don’t know why I do it,

Try to talk and say how nice.

I am not going to change who I am,

Not for no one can’t you see,

Your not special,

I’m going to be me.

Either you take me for who I am,

Or just leave me alone.

I am not the one to play games,

I have grown too old.

I try to be nice,

And say hello.

Yet you turn and yell as if I was out of control.

I don’t get your theory,

I don’t get your reason.

Why can’t you be honest and tell me your true feelings.

I know I’m not perfect,

I know you have miscues.

But that is stuff to work on,

We could do that between the two.

Only if you would allow me to help you out,

I know you would help to straighten me out.

Can’t do this alone,

It’s not a one way street,

Takes two to tango,

But only one to retreat.

We are both adults,

You can tell me the truth,

Why must I bother with someone who treats me like shoe,

Am I that gullible to your words,

Or is it that I am infatuated by the looks I observe.

Still have to figure out the truth to my words,

But for some reason I can’t put together enough nerve.

I’m still lost in my own train of thought,

For you still look with worry in your heart.

I know what I have to say,

And I know what you want to hear,

I just can’t imagine if what I dream is not real,

Don’t want to be shot down like a plane in a war,

Or be buried like a dog with its bone,

Want to sore in the sky like an eagle lives,

Want to roam the ocean like the whales.

But I want to be a pack and not be alone,

So more like a wolf who never hunts alone.

Or maybe a lion with the queen to his throne,

And may the Sahara be the kingdom you roam.

I don’t want to imagine me being alone.

Courage

Don’t know how you do it,

Stay inside my head,

I don’t even know your favorite song.

I ask myself why,

Why I even bother,

You look at me in different ways,

Some days your excited,

Some days you don’t even look.

All these mixed feeling have me shook.

I still haven’t told you how I feel,

But I have a feeling that soon I will reveal.

I just hope that I’m not shot down.

Don’t want to feel the pain,

A pain I have never felt,

The pain of rejection.

Something that I don’t want to feel.

Building up the courage to ask,

Ask if you feel the same,

A feeling of being glued.

My eyes stay stuck to you.

I watch all your movements,

Notice all your flare.

Don’t mind the stubbornness you show,

If I can build up the courage to tell you ,

It might come as relief,

To find out that you feel the same for me.

Ocean

Living life like the ocean,

And the current is getting stronger.

The time I have is slipping away,

And the moments I have are going away.

I am trying to take it slow but I don’t want to let go,

Of what I see can be something I would want to grow.

There is another world inside of me that no one has ever seen,

A world that only one can find.

While others wish and dream.

Looking for that someone who could take my breath away,

One that knows just what to say.

Not looking for the one to fill in,

But the one who will be there to the end.

Tiered of playing silly high school games,

Time to settle down and be on my way.

Life is unexpected,

No matter how much you plan.

That is the beauty of it all,

Because no one is ever in your plans.

The thought of knowing someone is out there just for me,

Gives me the hope and the chance to choose carefully.

Time to give it my all,

Something I have never done before,

This current in life is getting stronger,

I have a feeling that I am close.

Close to the one that might call my own.

Only time will tell if the current pulls her in,

I must stay true to myself and let life bring her in.

Fish

Have you ever just sat there and wondered of what it could be,

Your too afraid to ask,

And ashamed of what it could be.

Joke around with each other,

Put up play fights,

There is just a feeling that something is not right.

I hardly say a word,

Yet so much is felt,

How could one feel this way without having their presence felt.

Feels like I’m trapped like a fish in a tank,

No where to go but to crash and hit my face.

Wondering why I am stuck in this box,

With no one to talk to but bubbles to pop.

Rocks on the floor,

Flakes in the sky,

These are the things that drag me inside.

Don’t know how to explain,

But just know that I must,

It would feel weird if I just told you up front.

That’s why I’m writing my feelings for you,

Because I know how lost thoughts can be if they just stay like glue.

Find it hard to believe that I think this way towards you,

But I just have to pull myself together and just ask you.

It will be hard,

And it might take a while,

Challenge it will be to get for you to fall for me,

But fun I will have to see if it might be.

Flashbacks

Flashbacks…

Memories of the past run through my mind,

Some are good,

Some are bad.

I enjoy reminiscing on the good times we used to have,

And try not to remember those ones I wish we never had.

In my eyes you were perfect,

A man dream.

The type of girl that would fulfill any fantasy.

One of a kind,

Thoughts in my mind think of what it used to be,

The good times we had that were full of certainty.

You got me thinking of what we used to have,

The thoughts brings a smile to my face,

Seeing you just makes my mind go crazy.

I remember how things used to be.

I know now things will never be the same,

But I can’t get these thoughts out of my head.

They will fade,

This I know,

But as of now your all that I know,

The need to talk to you,

And the lust to see you,

These flashbacks are just images in my head,

And will only be memories stored like tools in a shed.

Dim

Seems like the days are getting longer,

The stress is building up,

Life is upside down,

Trying to find a way back up.

Lost in the moment,

Tiered of despair,

Losing the battle,

But the war is still something to bare.

Light is dim,

And hope is almost lost.

Don’t know how this problem will be solved.

Maybe one day I wake up from this dream,

This dream of lost hope and prosperity.

Anger, lust, and greed are things that are troublesome,

But these thing are stuff one must overcome.

One can’t do everything by themselves,

You don’t have to be afraid to ask for help.

A friend by your side to help with your needs,

Some way to help you get through this uncertainty.

Strange Thoughts

Been a while since one came out,

I have had no random thoughts to let out.

My mind has been empty or preoccupied,

Not much to say nor much to do,

I have been wondering about things to do.

Don’t know if I should continue or just let it loose.

But something tells me that I should stay and hold on for truce.

Lots on my mind with no place to go,

These thoughts in my head I just can’t let go.

I do not know why but these thoughts are just there,

Its funny because the feeling that I once had is no longer there.

Its crazy how you notice a few things and things can just change.

The erg of talking to you is no longer there,

The feeling of wanting to see you is something I can withstand.

Life has given me a few more window to look through,

And the things I see seem to be good.

Lovely visions are all I see,

And that is something I look forward to meet.

Opportunities arise,

Paths to follow,

Some I might have to travel going solo,

Others I will be helped along the way,

While some I will find a partner,

That will stay and fight to save my day.

It’s hard for me so see myself the way I see me now,

I have never felt this way before,

And I don’t like to be seen with a frown.

I want to stay happy and in a good mood,

So I try to find ways to spark up ugly news.

Reality kicks in,

And I realize a few things,

Some day I will find you,

And you will be within,

Within arms that love you and a heart that will never give in.

Fight

Frustration on my mind,

Anger in my heart.

These past few days have helped me fall apart.

Not knowing what to do,

Nor where to go,

I look forward to the day I make sense of this and just let go.

Fractured face,

Punctured heart,

These people in life know how to tear one apart.

Must stay strong and know how to survive,

Because its people like this that will help you strive.

Feel bad and hurt the ones who care,

For I am not the one who will live in despair.

I can see now your weakness and I know my strength,

For I showed that I was a better person today.

Words don’t hurt unless you take them to heart,

But I’m not the one who will use them to tear you apart,

Don’t expect me to be the friend you once had,

Because I just lost the respect I once had.

I will still say hello but it will end right there,

I will now try to forget that you were once there.

In my mind almost day and night,

But I know now that I don’t want to continue to fight.

I will leave you alone,

So don’t worry about me,

Just pretend that you don’t see me,

I’m done,

I’m through,

Let’s just say that I don’t even know you anymore,

No reason for you action,

And you know how I feel,

It was very unnecessary,

Words have a hard time expressing how I feel.

Just leave me alone,

Just let me be,

One day I’ll pull myself together and maybe explain to thee,

I’m so full of anger,

So full of rage.

You don’t want to see me go off on a rampage.

Just let me be,

I’ll talk when thy mind is clear,

But until then you better stay clear.

Rain

Rain rain how I want you to stay,

You make my day take the long way,

You soothe my mood,

And humble my soul.

Oh how I love rainy days.

Falling from the sky with your gentle push,

The sound against my window make me shush.

Oh how I wonder your mysterious fall,

And what you encounter before you fall too far.

You come and go but I want you to stay,

I love the way you make me feel every time you come my way.

I don’t want you to go,

But I understand why,

Just promise me that one day you will stop by.

Grow

Do you ever wonder how you fell in love,

The moment the first time you realized that they were the one.

And how all the ideas of living together raced across your mind.

You live each day waiting for a chance,

To merely seek a chance for just a glance,

Or maybe even a soft whisper of their voice in your ear,

Because their voice make you disappear.

So you remember the time when you fell in love,

But what about the time that your love grew?

The feeling that you get when you fall in love over and over again.

That is the feeling you seek,

For it’s the feeling that keeps one at peace.

Falling in love will only lead you to the bottom,

While growing in love will raise you to the top.

But finding that is the hardest thing to do,

But lucky for you I have found that feeling.

It has been growing in me since I was young.

A feeling that until this day it keeps on growing.

A feeling I feel will never grow old.

For the love of my life will never go away…

Voyage

Lost in this new world,

Need to start a new voyage.

Wanted to explore the seas,

But that exploration has already been made.

Something deeper,

Not talking about the depths below.

More the exploration within,

One could get lost in their own mind,

And take a voyage to find their way back.

I am on that voyage,

For I once thought that I was lost,

Only to find my way back on the right path.

Obstacles got in the way that forced me into going in the wrong direction,

But God has helped me find the way.

Back doing what seems right,

What always felt good.

The opportunity is there for the taking,

Just have to stay focused.

Can’t let the temptations stray me away,

From the destination that is set.

It has taken this long for me to get back on track,

And I am afraid to get lost.

I must keep my faith strong and trust in the Lord,

For with his help I know I won’t stray off too far.

True Love

Once again I’m stuck in this world of love,

Only this time with one that I thought that was lost.

Old memories,

Time to reminisce.

The times that we once shared I truly enjoyed,

Now I am reuniting with what lost me in life.

My first love,

My true joy.

Oh how I have longed for this feeling,

The feeling of rejoice.

Out in the open,

Just you in my mind,

With no worries.

A smile on my face when the thought comes up,

I don’t want to let go of this feeling inside.

I’ve missed it for too long to make this short,

So I’m going to try not to give up.

I had once given you my all,

And its time for me to yet do that again.

For you are the thing I cherish most.

Just a few weeks away before I feel the intensity rushing through my veins,

And it’s a feeling that will only build up until the moment is right,

My love,

My life,

How I’ve missed you so,

Now it’s time to let go,

And enjoy this ride for as long as I can,

For baseball is always looking for a new man.

Good-Bye

This shall be the last of my works,

For the story has come to its dreadful end.

My words weren’t enough to change a heart,

Now I must flow in a river full of hard luck.

I live with no regrets,

Nor words not being said.

For I said what I had to say,

And I did try my best.

Guess I couldn’t get past the rest.

Its all over,

Dead and gone,

But I will keep my head up and stay strong.

I hate feeling this way,

The feeling of defeat,

But I guess you lose some battles in order to stand on two feet.

So I’m done with this,

Time to move on.

I have already played all my cards.

I am not the champion,

Someone else took the prize,

Guess this is my final good bye…

Sky

The month almost over,

Yet these feelings stay true.

Thought that by now I would be over you,

Guess it’s a feeling that won’t go away,

For in my heart I want it to stay.

Fill my day with hope,

Only to be shot to the ground.

This feeling seems to be like a merry-go-round.

It happens day to day,

Comes back then goes away.

My mind and my heart of tired of this game,

But I just wish it would all go away.

Why did I start?

Why did I give in?

For it was me who wanted to dive in.

I should have kept this feeling to myself,

To save me the trouble.

But now I feel like the dirt under rubble.

I pray for hope,

I pray for change.

There is only one person who can save me from this twist,

But they won’t…

Don’t think they realize the game that they play,

Because I think this is excitement to their day.

So until they realize the harm that is done,

I will still keep on feeling like a bum.

And until that day when we see eye to eye,

I will continue to fall from the sky.

No Harm

This feeling just won’t go away,

The harder I try to fight it the more it wants to stay.

Words are spoken,

But no actions are taken.

I am to blame for this feeling inside,

For it was I who sparked the fire to arise.

But you keep the flame going,

Even when it seems to die out.

For some reason I think you don’t want it to go out.

I try to force myself to think of other things,

But I can’t help to think of what wonders it might bring.

To have you by my side,

The one to call my own.

Your superman,

The one to grow old.

This feeling inside grows by day,

And it marvals me to think that you might feel the same way.

But there are objects in the path that I take,

For it kills me to see you grow farther away.

It seems like you pull me only to push me back,

Why does it seem like I’m the one on the side,

The one you wish you could be with but won’t even try.

You know you want change,

And I know you want comfort.

I can be the one to give you those things if you just stop pushing me under.

I know I am different,

I know what I can do.

And you know that I will always be true.

You know this because I have told you the truth,

And I am a man of my word when I say things that I’ll do.

Don’t give me your life,

I just ask for your heart,

And a chance to show you that I will do it no harm.

Stress

Then mention of your name brings a smile to my face,

The feeling of your touch just warms me up.

The look in your eyes shine like the stars in the sky,

Your beauty is something that I’ll never be able to forget.

To me your perfect in every way,

I know God made no mistake.

Your one of a kind,

And your always on my mind.

Yet there seems to be some kind of stress…

I can proclaim all this greatness,

As well as dream and hope.

But nothing will be certain if your still stuck in a hole.

I know you’re in thought,

And it might seem hard.

But just realize how far you have grown apart.

You bring me your life,

And all its struggles.

And I do nothing but endorse them and give you comfort.

I don’t know how many people you say those things too,

But I know that deep down inside you feel the way I do.

Don’t be scared to let go of something that seems true,

It doesn’t help if you don’t feel the way he do.

Let your heart speak without letting it think,

Because you don’t have to be stuck in race that you can’t win.

You tell me good night like a good friend should do,

But I feel like there is something else that you want to say too.

Don’t be afraid to let go of something you’re used too,

Because I won’t let you go through it blue.

I’ll be with you every step of the way,

Supporting you in every which way.

For I am your life line,

Your gateway to help.

And I will always be there relief your stress.

Game

My heart is pounding,

Can’t control the tempo,

Clock is winding down,

Vision is so blurry,

Mind is going in circles,

I don’t think I can deal with all the ruckus in this place.

So much pressure,

So much pain,

What were to happen if I blew the game…

Don’t want to lose,

Can’t afford to quit,

But what were to happen if I came up short again…

I’d be left alone,

With no one by my side.

It was you who I was playing for this whole time.

I don’t know what I’d do if I were to lose another game,

But I will be back to try this again some day.

Passion

These thoughts in my head won’t let me go to bed,

So much stress in my life it has me thinking twice.

I wonder if I did the right thing,

Because my mind is going off into countless spins.

One day I think this and the other I think that.

Why does my mind keep going off track.

I want to stay focused I want to stay true.

But I think I know what is causing me to swerve.

There is a feeling inside me that just won’t go away,

And that is because I think about it everyday.

I don’t know why I do,

But I know this feeling is true.

I just hope one day you see it too,

Because it kills me inside to know this things.

The deep feeling I have that just won’t go away.

I miss you when I don’t see you,

I love it when your there.

But I don’t think you realize the passion that is there.

I’ll give you everything that you could ever want.

And I’ll be the one who will take your heart.

Just give me a change to show you the way,

And I’ll show you that I am here to stay.

Right

Open like an eagle’s wings,

Free like a fish out at sea.

Proud like a lion out in the wild,

You always seem to make me smile.

Beautiful in my eyes in every way.

You never fail to take my breath away.

Perfect smile to go along with a perfect style.

Undefined and one of a kind,

Someone like you is hard to find.

Royalty in every aspect of life,

Someone should treat just right.

Know

Don’t want to push you,

Cause I don’t want to lose you.

But it seems like every decision I make is the wrong one.

If I talk to you I want you more and more,

If I try to avoid you I miss you more and more.

It’s a battle that I cannot win,

For you are the one who must decide if I should stay.

I don’t know what you think,

Because you make me so confused.

I just want to be able to understand you.

You’re a very nice person,

One who I adore.

You talk to everyone and your not ignored.

Yet for some reason I get this strange vibe,

That deep down inside you want to cry.

Don’t be scared to let your emotions out,

For it’s the only way I will be able to hear you out.

I just want the truth no matter how weird it might be,

You never know what might happen unless you face reality.

Let it all out no matter how wrong it might be,

I just want to know if there is a chance that you’ll stand by me.

Truth

The mention of your name ignites the fire to the blaze,

A blaze that could keep me warm in an cold arctic day.

You run through my mind like a horse in the plains,

Yet you keep me guessing like a game of charades.

I know I’m sarcastic and I seem mean at times.

But that’s just a cover for what I truly feel inside.

Don’t know how to explain it,

Don’t think words can paint it true.

But no action will happen as long as you don’t stay true.

No matter the outcome,

May it be a leap of death,

I will fall with you if it means that you’ll do your best.

I’m willing to help,

And also to lose.

But a game requires at least two.

So tell me the reason,

Tell me the truth.

Because I will never find out unless I hear it from you.

Open up your mind,

Yet speak with your heart.

And trust in me that I wont let you fall apart.

So tell me your worries,

Tell me the truth.

And know that I will always be here to help and guide you.

Friend

A smile on my face,

From ear to ear.

The thoughts in your head are starting to become clear.

The grin on your face,

The sparkle in your eyes.

Makes me have butterflies inside.

Don’t think I’ll forget you,

Nor think I’ll go away.

I will be the one here for you,

You just have to call my way.

I’ll listen to you talk,

And jus sit there amazed,

For the tone of your voice takes my breath away.

Your look is so simple,

Your smile so complete.

I look at you different every time I blink.

Amazed by your beauty,

Blown away by your style.

And I can only imagine how to make it worth wild.

A friendship we trust,

And longing something so much more.

Future

Live Laugh and Love,

A phrase that never seems to be lost.

The feeling I had has grown away,

I’ve expressed what I needed to say.

And though I heard what I did not want to hear,

This feeling inside will always be near.

You filled me with lies,

And false hopes,

But I shall move on and strive for a better host.

One that will be true,

And dear to my heart.

One that won’t let me fall apart.

The one that one day I’ll call my own.

The lucky one to be the lady at the throne.

The queen in my life,

My partner in crime.

Someone to myself until the end of time.

Yours

It kills me to say that I know we can’t be,

My thoughts towards you felt so complete.

I don’t want to feel what I feel inside,

Because slowly this pain will kill me inside.

You run through my mind everyday,

Especially since I gave myself away.

You don’t know what you do to me,

You don’t know how I truly feel.

I just know deep down inside this feeling is real.

I know I can’t have you,

I know this is true,

But why do I feel this way if I know it can’t come true.

I feel like I’m on a journey to the end of all time,

That is until you stop and turn and no longer say good bye.

Waiting for the day you say hello,

And hoping for the day you stand under the mistletoe.

Just so I could hold you in my hands,

And be lucky to say that I am your man.

Mixed

I thought it was over,

This feeling inside.

The flame still lit,

And a spark still inside.

Don’t know how to react,

Because you seem to fall back.

Though you pull me in,

And for what?

So you could pull me down,

And throw me to the ground.

Why do you bother to sweet talk me in,

When you’ll spit me out and leave me to sin.

Just hear me out and give me a chance,

I know that I am better than the rest.

But I guess that I will never be able to contest.

Seasons

Its funny to me to feel like we can almost be,

Something that is full of uncertainty.

We talk and laugh,

Yet nothing seems to last.

You share your stories,

And how you’ve been.

You share your dreams,

And what you want to be.

Yet for some reason we cannot be.

This is something that is contradicting.

You may feel likes its out of reach,

But all you have to do is leap.

I’ll be waiting to catch your fall,

Much like the winter does to the fall.

And when spring and summer come back around,

You will know that I will be here to stick around.

Toy

This feeling that I have just won’t go away,

And the things you do just make it stay in place.

I want to let go because I know I can’t have,

But someone is telling me that I must still grasp.

Ever wanted to hold on to something that you could not have?

Like when you’re a kid and mom and dad make you mad,

When they wouldn't let you get the toy of your dreams,

Now your by yourself with an empty dream.

Ever wonder how your life could have changed if you had that one toy?

Well I still wonder because I won’t leave the store.

Feeling

I want to be able to hold you,

Hold you close and never let go.

I want to share secrets and thoughts,

As well as laugh and cry.

But there is something holding me back,

Something that I cannot change.

And that is a feeling that must grow in you day by day.

A feeling that has grown in me but I cannot see,

The damage it has brought within me.

There is a desire for something that I cannot have,

And it will grow until the hole has collapsed.

This feeling in me is hard to bear,

I just wish that it was you who would stare…

You

Pure like spring water,

Gentle as rain,

Free like an eagle,

Yet wild like a mane.

Tough as nails,

Though nice like a kiss.

You run through my mind like a horse in the plains,

Yet your as far as the moon and it brings pain.