Flashbacks

Flashbacks…

Memories of the past run through my mind,

Some are good,

Some are bad.

I enjoy reminiscing on the good times we used to have,

And try not to remember those ones I wish we never had.

In my eyes you were perfect,

A man dream.

The type of girl that would fulfill any fantasy.

One of a kind,

Thoughts in my mind think of what it used to be,

The good times we had that were full of certainty.

You got me thinking of what we used to have,

The thoughts brings a smile to my face,

Seeing you just makes my mind go crazy.

I remember how things used to be.

I know now things will never be the same,

But I can’t get these thoughts out of my head.

They will fade,

This I know,

But as of now your all that I know,

The need to talk to you,

And the lust to see you,

These flashbacks are just images in my head,

And will only be memories stored like tools in a shed.

Dim

Seems like the days are getting longer,

The stress is building up,

Life is upside down,

Trying to find a way back up.

Lost in the moment,

Tiered of despair,

Losing the battle,

But the war is still something to bare.

Light is dim,

And hope is almost lost.

Don’t know how this problem will be solved.

Maybe one day I wake up from this dream,

This dream of lost hope and prosperity.

Anger, lust, and greed are things that are troublesome,

But these thing are stuff one must overcome.

One can’t do everything by themselves,

You don’t have to be afraid to ask for help.

A friend by your side to help with your needs,

Some way to help you get through this uncertainty.

Strange Thoughts

Been a while since one came out,

I have had no random thoughts to let out.

My mind has been empty or preoccupied,

Not much to say nor much to do,

I have been wondering about things to do.

Don’t know if I should continue or just let it loose.

But something tells me that I should stay and hold on for truce.

Lots on my mind with no place to go,

These thoughts in my head I just can’t let go.

I do not know why but these thoughts are just there,

Its funny because the feeling that I once had is no longer there.

Its crazy how you notice a few things and things can just change.

The erg of talking to you is no longer there,

The feeling of wanting to see you is something I can withstand.

Life has given me a few more window to look through,

And the things I see seem to be good.

Lovely visions are all I see,

And that is something I look forward to meet.

Opportunities arise,

Paths to follow,

Some I might have to travel going solo,

Others I will be helped along the way,

While some I will find a partner,

That will stay and fight to save my day.

It’s hard for me so see myself the way I see me now,

I have never felt this way before,

And I don’t like to be seen with a frown.

I want to stay happy and in a good mood,

So I try to find ways to spark up ugly news.

Reality kicks in,

And I realize a few things,

Some day I will find you,

And you will be within,

Within arms that love you and a heart that will never give in.

Fight

Frustration on my mind,

Anger in my heart.

These past few days have helped me fall apart.

Not knowing what to do,

Nor where to go,

I look forward to the day I make sense of this and just let go.

Fractured face,

Punctured heart,

These people in life know how to tear one apart.

Must stay strong and know how to survive,

Because its people like this that will help you strive.

Feel bad and hurt the ones who care,

For I am not the one who will live in despair.

I can see now your weakness and I know my strength,

For I showed that I was a better person today.

Words don’t hurt unless you take them to heart,

But I’m not the one who will use them to tear you apart,

Don’t expect me to be the friend you once had,

Because I just lost the respect I once had.

I will still say hello but it will end right there,

I will now try to forget that you were once there.

In my mind almost day and night,

But I know now that I don’t want to continue to fight.

I will leave you alone,

So don’t worry about me,

Just pretend that you don’t see me,

I’m done,

I’m through,

Let’s just say that I don’t even know you anymore,

No reason for you action,

And you know how I feel,

It was very unnecessary,

Words have a hard time expressing how I feel.

Just leave me alone,

Just let me be,

One day I’ll pull myself together and maybe explain to thee,

I’m so full of anger,

So full of rage.

You don’t want to see me go off on a rampage.

Just let me be,

I’ll talk when thy mind is clear,

But until then you better stay clear.

Rain

Rain rain how I want you to stay,

You make my day take the long way,

You soothe my mood,

And humble my soul.

Oh how I love rainy days.

Falling from the sky with your gentle push,

The sound against my window make me shush.

Oh how I wonder your mysterious fall,

And what you encounter before you fall too far.

You come and go but I want you to stay,

I love the way you make me feel every time you come my way.

I don’t want you to go,

But I understand why,

Just promise me that one day you will stop by.