Buzzer Beater...

You can fool me once,

But you won’t fool me twice.

Thought you would want to give this a try.

Now I see that I wasn’t the one playing games.

Call me immature,

A child in your eyes.

What you fail to realize is what lies inside.

Look in the mirror and what do you see.

Its not the mature person you once thought you’d be.

Honesty helps,

I won’t take things to heart.

I would if you lie,

Then flip things upside down.

Two face,

Leave that up to the movies,

I don’t want to be acting,

This ain’t no play.

It’s called life,

Ever care to gaze?

Stop living in this fantasy world,

Only Disney lives on in the happy world.

Nothing ends happily ever after,

Most things in life end in disaster.

Take risks like the game we don’t like to play,

Life is too long like a Monopoly game.

Shuffle your deck,

Pick out a card,

Only a magician can pick the right one.

I can’t do magic,

I can only do me.

This I know for certainty.

Stop playing trick,

And get in the game,

The longer you wait,

The less I’ll be willing to stay.

One last shot,

Like a game winner.

Clock is ticking,

Lets not wait until the buzzer beater…

Out Of My Mind

Angry at the moment,

Don’t know why.

This feeling I have…

Making me lose my state of mind.

Can’t stand the pressure,

Those words are hard for me to say,

For I am fearless,

And I will never back away.

Times are tough,

Decisions are bold.

Have to learn how to control.

Really can’t explain this feeling I have inside.

It boggles me to even think I show it on the outside.

Try to keep a front,

So that no one sees how I feel,

Some of my emotions just seem too unreal.

Must stay focus and see beyond the wheel.

See what lies on the road ahead,

So that I may avoid a collision,

Head to head.

Stay in my lane,

And in my state of mind.

For when I am lost,

I fall so far behind.

Must find a way to keep these troubles out of my mind.

For The Best

Mind is blank,

Frustration has arrived.

Crazy ideas just rush through my mind.

Don’t know how they got there,

Or if they will even work.

Stressful it has become,

To cope with all this junk.

At some point I will break,

Don’t want to see that day,

Have to learn to do less,

So that I may do more.

Have too many things on my plate,

With not enough space.

I seem too stack up more and more,

Only to leave that on my plate.

At times I wish I could start over,

And not do so many things,

But I feel that if I don’t help out things won’t be the same.

A have a strong personality,

One that is hard to break,

Which is why I get involved in the things I do.

They require someone like me,

To lead them and guide them to where they need to be.

May not be the best example,

But I will try my best.

Only time will tell if what I did was for the best.

Stronghold

Random thoughts in my head,

Ones that must be expressed.

Thoughts that make one think of what might lie ahead.

Ones that make you ponder on how one should act.

Open up your thoughtfulness,

Or just stay trapped.

Ever get the feeling of being ignored,

Used,

Or mistreated.

Feel as if people are teasing.

Try to be nice,

Try to understand,

Sometimes one can’t withstand,

At times things get tough,

Losing trust,

Hope,

And faith.

These are the times were one must stay strong.

Talk to the ones that ignore you,

Let them know you are still there.

Comfort the ones that use you,

For they are in despair.

Be nice to the ones that mistreat you,

For they are scared.

Remember all the joy in life,

When you feel like no one cares.

It’s in these hard times when one must stay strong.

Not to lose the trust,

Which they have bestowed.

Always having hope,

Because someday there will be gold.

Never let go of faith,

That is your stronghold.

Delight

Feel like a kid with all these jokes,

Want to grow up but I cant let go.

Feels good to joke around,

Keeps me laughing,

Keeps me on the ground.

I don’t want to be lost in this world called “real”.

Superficial glamour,

And fortunes that are not real.

Temptations,

Lust,

Greed,

All pollute this world,

Have to see the good things in life so I won’t go overload.

Which is why I joke around to stay on a lively state of mind.

Don’t want to be the mean guy in the street.

The one who people run from,

Or the one they never want to greet.

So I get by the bad times by telling jokes and living loose.

I want to roam around like a horse in the wild,

Only to stop and stare and at the beauty around.

The beauty I see is in you,

At the moment I cannot feel blue.

Blue is meant for the sky above,

I am a mere man that is stationed on land.

Only to look up at the clear blue sky,

To hope to never have that feeling inside,

Must look past the blue in the sky,

For the stars at night like to hide.

Must move fast to clear the way,

For the clouds are easy to move if I you know how to sway,

So that one day my star may shine bright,

And that my future maybe full of delight.

Detail

Mind in one direction,

Thoughts are coming through,

Not a day goes by without me thinking about you,

Only to say hi,

Or see how your day has been,

It’s not an obsession,

Not even close to love,

Just a curious thought towards the one I’m thinking of.

A smile on my face every time I hear your name,

A glow around you when your in my presence,

Enjoy the moments as if they were presents.

Lift me up if I have had a bad day,

Or if I was exhausted you bring energy my way.

We don’t really talk,

We just mingle.

Get a good vibe,

But that’s just how I feel inside.

A bit more friendly when you are around.

And I have notice that you don’t mind when I am around.

A pinch of kindness is all I need,

A sign from you so I could open up to thee.

Waiting for that moment when I truly feel calm,

To open up myself and let it all out.

That time doesn’t seem soon,

Things are nice and slow,

I just wish I could hold thy hand,

Or even hug a little more.

Just want the feeling of someone in my arms,

They feel empty,

As if there were no cookies in the cookie jar.

To hold a hand,

Or feel a hug.

Something true and not just a gesture to warm some ones heart.

I am in no rush,

Because I know your circumstance,

So don’t feel pressured,

I don’t want you to feel that.

Want to be the nice guy,

The one who really cares.

The one who will listen to every last detail.

Unorthodox

Peace at mind,
One with nature.
There is a calmer side to this rebel,
Seems to be like everyone is against him but he won't go down without a fight.
Disrespectful he might seem,
But that is because you don't see. There is a passion burning within,
One he won't let no one get in the way.
Unorthodox might be his ways,
But generations change as do the methods used to get a message in the brain.
Misunderstood,
Not welcomed,
But there is one bigger problem.
This unorthodox rebel won't go away.
His ways will stay and you won't like it.
But it the beginning of a new era,
And this era is bond to stay.

Back in Time

Going back in time,

Remembering my old days.

In a time machine,

Looking back at the old me.

Remembering how I used to be.

And what I thought would always be.

Never thought of it much until just now.

How I never lost the touch I once found.

The feeling was always in my heart,

Yet could never figure how to take it apart.

Thought it would fade,

And I thought it once did,

But the feeling came back once I started again.

Thinking back at the times I spent.

Out by the locker and by the fence.

In the morning by the basketball post,

In the afternoon by the bus loop.

Never thought I would remember the day,

When I thought I lost the thing that made my day.

A few years have past sense the thought has occurred,

But now that I am thinking it can’t help but grow.

I wonder what this could all mean,

But I think of what it used to be.

The thought was in my mind for quite some time,

But too many things got in the way.

Seemed to move on,

I lived my life,

Sparks kept on appearing but would soon die.

Now the chance has spurred up again,

Only this time I am speaking within,

Words fly out like bats from a cave,

Looking for a place stay.

Hopefully finding a place to feed,

So that they may grow and continue to live free.

Only time will tell if its just another spark,

But this time I don’t think it will dim out or move on,

Because the seed was planted and now thoughts moves along,

Like water falling from a waterfall.

Only to find somewhere to splash,

And one day calm down and touch land.

Turtle

All work and no play,

Who says a grown up can’t have both in one day.

Matured young man,

Yet acts like a kid.

Hard at work,

Yet all you do is play.

Paying your bills,

But having fun.

What kind of grown up plays both parts.

Hard shell,

To protect the soft inside.

More like a turtle,

Who fights by ones side.

Tough as nails,

Sweet as candy.

Such a harsh man,

But gentle to the touch.

This guy knows what to do in such.

A balance of both worlds.

One who works hard,

With no frail.

Has enough time to play,

And chill as if he doesn’t care.

Must be a good life to live,

But one thing is missing in the life of this kid.

Is a companion,

One who he can blend with.

Someone to spoil with his unselfish ways.

No matter how busy his day he will always seem to look her way.

Close Friends

I like the fact that we are friendly,

And how things have slightly changed.

Enjoy the fact we talk more often,

I don’t want this to altered.

I can keep this feeling secret,

Or let it all just hang,

And not care about what others think,

Because on one else really cares.

I my trust grows day by day.

The more we talk the more I want it to stay.

This feeling of being wanted,

A feeling I know might change,

But at the time right now it feels like I am sane.

Mentally stabled,

Ready and able,

To tackle something new on.

A challenge it might be,

The one between you and me,

Because we hardly know each other,

We don’t know what the other see’s.

I know your trust in me has grown,

For you tell stories that I would have never known,

I know I am matured,

But a kid at heart.

That is one thing that will never spilt apart.

A chance is given,

To the good guy in town,

I just hope it goes better this time around.

One Run

Look up at the sky,

It’s a bird,

It’s a plane,

Those are just countless dreams that make one go insane.

Can’t help but wonder of what it could be,

If maybe just one dream would come rescue me.

I pray to the heavens,

I pray to my God,

I have had blessing,

But questions still fall.

What am I doing?

How do I live?

These things still bother but I can not give in.

My dreams are big,

I shall not give up hope.

For I am determined to end up where I imagine myself,

Only a pro.

Hard work pays off,

Haven’t worked hard enough,

For I am still in the slump looking at the top.

Must stay focused,

Have to stay rich,

For my love for the game is what gives me the pinch.

A motive to continue,

A way to fight back,

Through all those tough times I wish would never had past.

My dreams are sky high,

Even reaching the stars,

And if I fall I know I won’t fall too far.

By reaching for the stars I shall fall in the clouds,

And that is better off than still being on ground.

Let my motivation carry me along the way.

And may I win the battles so I don’t stray.

Time to buckle down and get things done.

For life only gives you one run.

Solved

LOL smiley face after everything I write,

You make me laugh,

And you shine like a star in the sky.

We were both confused and it was funny to me,

I guess the way I am was hard for you to see,

Took me a while to build up the nerve,

But I am glad I didn’t curve.

It was a little surprise that you once had no clue,

But I guess at times everyone plays guess who.

Scrabble my letter to make them words,

Stories came out and spun in your world,

Confused you were as to who was the mystery,

At first surprised but then seemed happy.

Am glad you played the silly little game,

Others would have grown tired and pushed me away,

I had a feeling that you knew all along,

But I guess I was wrong there too because you didn’t know what was going on.

Now it is settled,

We have both agreed,

That the mystery lady was you indeed.

Interested in seeing where this case might lead,

Although it is solved,

We will still have to wait and see.

Slick with the words,

Ease to the mind,

The words that spill I can stop time,

Let you imagine of what these words mean,

We are just friends that laugh and be silly,

Single we might be,

At least for the time now you see,

Who would have thought that a guy like me,

Would grow up one day and meet thy mystery.

My Story

Inspired by a friend…

Drowning in confusion,

Lost in the dark,

Must cross the Ring of Fire,

Or go off on an expedition across the sea.

Half way across the world,

Is where I might find you,

Maybe that is where you will be.

But in what state of mind,

My head won’t be clear.

Excommunicated,

Lost in my own world,

Thought you were my everything,

I gave you my whole world.

But it seems you threw it all away.

I could be mistaken,

There is still hope.

Only because I love you too much to just let go.

Don’t want my time to be wasted,

I just want to know,

How much do I have to work to get a simple hello.

I understand that your busy,

But I feel so lost.

I thought we were a team,

But you just took off.

How can one be apart of something that the other wants nothing of.

Growing tired of your games,

And tiered of your lies.

I want something more but you just push me aside.

I want to move on but I am holding on to hope.

But the hope is slipping like a rope.

Farther and farther you seem to go,

I don’t know how much longer my grip will hold.

Thought was we had was meant to be,

But by the looks of it I guess it was just a fantasy.

I know my dreams,

I know what I want to do,

I just thought one day I could share them with you,

But as of now my life is on hold,

Because the one that I thought I loved is going overboard.

Mystery

Tiered from all the moving,

Can’t feel my legs,

My head is spinning,

Feels like I’m going insane.

The thought of you puts me at ease,

A smile on my face,

Or a grin just to tease.

The mystery that revolves around you,

Some know and others have no clue,

Thy mystery lady,

What shall I do,

I want to tell you but my words seem to confuse you.

Innocent thoughts run through your mind,

Countless wonders race across time,

Oh how I dream of just telling you the truth,

But I know now that it must be kept from you.

My mystery girl what shall I do,

You seem clueless and I don’t know what to do.

The mystery seemed solved,

But that only opened the case.

For you are going in circles while I sit here and wait.

I am enjoying this silly little game that we play,

For I hope one day you come my way.

The only thing left is for me to tell you how I feel,

But I have given enough signs to let you know and its your turn to play the field,

I have laid down my cards and placed my bet,

But I am waiting on yours for you seem to be wondering,

Your facial expressions are saying to raise the pot,

But the game of poker is testing your luck.

One day you will find out who the mystery winner is,

Until then I will continue to play and fool you with the words within.

Thoughts Of You

A feeling of depression,

Can’t even count to two,

My mind is going in circles,

I just don’t know what to do.

I want to just talk,

About the most randomest things.

Go late into the night,

And just giggle at stupid things.

Never have I had the pleasure of holding you in my arms,

Never have I felt the gloss that you put on.

Mesmerizing eyes is what I see,

And am smile from that could light up a tree.

Your style is so rare,

Sometimes I can’t bare,

I smile at the thought of your presence,

And the thought of my fingers running through your hair.

I just want to hold you,

And cuddle by your side,

Sit down and watch a movie,

Laugh and even cry by your side.

Tickle you and make fun of your silly habits,

And tell you that you are more than I could ever imagine.

The thought of you puts butterflies inside,

I just wish I had the courage to tell you how I feel inside.

As I am writing you are all I see,

And I picture myself with you for all eternity.

Travel

I feel like traveling the world,

But don’t want to go by myself,

I feel like building up the nerve,

But I can’t see myself,

Need life to smoothen out,

Something must happen before I plan things out,

Face full of worry,

Heart full of fear,

Can hold on to anything because thy palms are teared,

Grip is slipping,

Don’t know what to do,

Can’t go a day without thinking about what feels true,

Mixed emotions from people around,

That might be the problem with me unfolding and taking a bound.

Life is to short,

Must not live in fear,

I know this so why must I hide and avoid my tears.

Life does the twist,

Don’t know that dance move.

Life has taken too many turns,

Might get lost soon but I must not detour,

Must stay on track,

To fulfill my goal,

So that one day I might be able to hold on to my own.

Thy most rarest pearl one can find,

An angel from heaven,

A perfect dove flying by,

Your beauty is unmatched,

No parallel,

So how can one have a chance at someone so fly.

A gambling man,

Just playing my cards,

Trying to win the pot,

Be lucky and use my charm,

Stay true to myself,

And what I believe,

For one day I know that we will be,

So until then I shall just look and admire thee.

Slow and Steady

Ready, Set, Go!

It’s just a race,

Don’t know how much longer I can take,

Life moving so fast,

Can’t see what’s moving past,

Need to slow down before I hit the ground.

Can’t keep up the paste like the rabbit did in the race,

Must be like the turtle,

Who was moving slow and at times nocturnal,

Slow and steady will win the race,

But right now it must be at a high fly rate.

Beating so fast heart about to explode,

This emotion inside is hard to hold.

Thought of joy that’s hard to keep inside,

Man how a kid must feel when he sees their prize.

Eyes light up like a kid in a toy store,

Running around like I just had the whole candy store.

Feeling so fly I could fly with the kites,

Feeling so calm like a walk through a meadow,

This feeling I can’t keep inside,

Wonder what would happen if I let the butterflies outside,

They are flapping their wings waiting for the cue,

Or when will my courage be past due.

Must be like the turtle and take it slow,

Because if I move fast my change might blow.

Slow and steady will win the race,

I just hope that I can keep pace.

Kingdom

Like horses out the stable,

Emotions running wild,

I don’t know why I do it,

Try to talk and say how nice.

I am not going to change who I am,

Not for no one can’t you see,

Your not special,

I’m going to be me.

Either you take me for who I am,

Or just leave me alone.

I am not the one to play games,

I have grown too old.

I try to be nice,

And say hello.

Yet you turn and yell as if I was out of control.

I don’t get your theory,

I don’t get your reason.

Why can’t you be honest and tell me your true feelings.

I know I’m not perfect,

I know you have miscues.

But that is stuff to work on,

We could do that between the two.

Only if you would allow me to help you out,

I know you would help to straighten me out.

Can’t do this alone,

It’s not a one way street,

Takes two to tango,

But only one to retreat.

We are both adults,

You can tell me the truth,

Why must I bother with someone who treats me like shoe,

Am I that gullible to your words,

Or is it that I am infatuated by the looks I observe.

Still have to figure out the truth to my words,

But for some reason I can’t put together enough nerve.

I’m still lost in my own train of thought,

For you still look with worry in your heart.

I know what I have to say,

And I know what you want to hear,

I just can’t imagine if what I dream is not real,

Don’t want to be shot down like a plane in a war,

Or be buried like a dog with its bone,

Want to sore in the sky like an eagle lives,

Want to roam the ocean like the whales.

But I want to be a pack and not be alone,

So more like a wolf who never hunts alone.

Or maybe a lion with the queen to his throne,

And may the Sahara be the kingdom you roam.

I don’t want to imagine me being alone.

Courage

Don’t know how you do it,

Stay inside my head,

I don’t even know your favorite song.

I ask myself why,

Why I even bother,

You look at me in different ways,

Some days your excited,

Some days you don’t even look.

All these mixed feeling have me shook.

I still haven’t told you how I feel,

But I have a feeling that soon I will reveal.

I just hope that I’m not shot down.

Don’t want to feel the pain,

A pain I have never felt,

The pain of rejection.

Something that I don’t want to feel.

Building up the courage to ask,

Ask if you feel the same,

A feeling of being glued.

My eyes stay stuck to you.

I watch all your movements,

Notice all your flare.

Don’t mind the stubbornness you show,

If I can build up the courage to tell you ,

It might come as relief,

To find out that you feel the same for me.

Ocean

Living life like the ocean,

And the current is getting stronger.

The time I have is slipping away,

And the moments I have are going away.

I am trying to take it slow but I don’t want to let go,

Of what I see can be something I would want to grow.

There is another world inside of me that no one has ever seen,

A world that only one can find.

While others wish and dream.

Looking for that someone who could take my breath away,

One that knows just what to say.

Not looking for the one to fill in,

But the one who will be there to the end.

Tiered of playing silly high school games,

Time to settle down and be on my way.

Life is unexpected,

No matter how much you plan.

That is the beauty of it all,

Because no one is ever in your plans.

The thought of knowing someone is out there just for me,

Gives me the hope and the chance to choose carefully.

Time to give it my all,

Something I have never done before,

This current in life is getting stronger,

I have a feeling that I am close.

Close to the one that might call my own.

Only time will tell if the current pulls her in,

I must stay true to myself and let life bring her in.

Fish

Have you ever just sat there and wondered of what it could be,

Your too afraid to ask,

And ashamed of what it could be.

Joke around with each other,

Put up play fights,

There is just a feeling that something is not right.

I hardly say a word,

Yet so much is felt,

How could one feel this way without having their presence felt.

Feels like I’m trapped like a fish in a tank,

No where to go but to crash and hit my face.

Wondering why I am stuck in this box,

With no one to talk to but bubbles to pop.

Rocks on the floor,

Flakes in the sky,

These are the things that drag me inside.

Don’t know how to explain,

But just know that I must,

It would feel weird if I just told you up front.

That’s why I’m writing my feelings for you,

Because I know how lost thoughts can be if they just stay like glue.

Find it hard to believe that I think this way towards you,

But I just have to pull myself together and just ask you.

It will be hard,

And it might take a while,

Challenge it will be to get for you to fall for me,

But fun I will have to see if it might be.